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hearing : Is this what you called love .

Currently mood : Down and feel like breaking down silently .

I miss you .

to tell you the truth , I feel so down , I wanted to text you but somehow , I cant make it . I dont feel like texting .

with you calling me up , and i didnt answer the calls , I knew you know that I wanted to avoid you somehow , I have to do .

It threw me a bad impact for me -.- with all the hurts . I realized i cant pulled through , if you keep on hurting me .

You keep on putting words out from my mouth . I never do it . Why ? why must our relationship turns out this way ?

Am i at fault ? However , i've put my best shot . To eventually understand you .

When I 'm down , were you down for me ?

- No .

When I need you to eventually spent the entire day with me , were you willing to ?

- No .

When I cried , were you there to wipe my tears ?

- No .

Who am I really in your life ?

- Fiancee / friend ?

Basically, I felt nothing -.- You're just using me , cause you know , I 'm willing to wait for your return but will you appreciate me for what I am ? I 'm a girl , with a heart , i 'm just an ordinary girl . I;m losing my patience towards you .

Whats happening to us ? Why must you changed the way we are meant to be ?

Is this what you want ? To repeat the history ? We're tearing apart .

if this continues on , we might have to move on our separate ways . I cant pull through . I cant stand on my own , facing the obstacles , with all the shits that you've thrown . I swear . I couldnt make it through. I miss you , yes i do .

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This is how I feel when i was fiance . I really hope , he would answer my questions . Haishh . I'm fcuking down .
Who am i to ue ? Getting ready soon to meet Mummy at Bugis Topman at 6pm .
Going shopping.
Kakak dont feel like tagging so yeaa , I understand her (: Its okeh sweets !
Basically , currently , I feel like breaking down inside .
He doesnt understand how I feel .
I 'm sorry fiance , didnt want to picked up your calls or even reply your messages .
I felt so down .
I want you to realized how Hurt I am whenever You throw all the shits to me , and I had to stand on my own feet -.-
Is this what you called love ?
I wanted you to apologized to me sincerely and stop throwing shits to me -.-

Is this what I want in 2010 ? Where is the resolution that I've made in 2009 for my 2010 ? Why am I being in this way ? Why must things went on this way . Listing all the stuffs that I did , which i wasnt supposed to . Haishh .
` slacked and never think of revising .
` avoiding fiance and trying to turn to someone else .
` kept silence and never share my problems to big sis , like before .
` felt as though , i was a broken hearted girl .
` skipped school and didnt take any responsibility for my own educations .
` seacrhing for another part who can appreciate me .
- simply , baby . You are not being who you are . where have all your promises went to ? It just went inside a drain .
You really changed back to your past which You wasnt supposed too .
You 're running away from problems which eventually you used to be strong to face it eventhough , howh tough the obstacles been given .
Why must he go ? Why cant you get over him ? Havent you had enough of hurting him ? This question , had been playing in my mind .
Your image , It seems hard to go away . I realized I've made a big mistakes to leave you alone and lead to our own separate ways .
Muhammad Fiqkri , I miss you . I need you once again . Will you come back ? Giving me another chances ?
If I would given the chance ,
I promise to lead to a happy Life with you . I remember the times I had with you , The moments when I was down, You're always there.
I went to another guy , leaving you , And now , I felt the impact . I know I deserved it . I was so dumb . I shouldnt have leave .
i WOULD never forget how the first time we met eachother , the moments where i found the happiness however , I , myself who shattered the dreams .

I was down and went down under my void deck with one of my girls , Azillah and we played soccer . Its our daily rountine .

You came by , and asked me , Can you and your bro join us , and I said , Yes .

Since then , Everyday , we met up after I finished up my school work and we played soccer .

I love to bully you , to be my waterboy , but you were silence and did what had been told .

As time passes , we get close but we never take another step to our friendship .

At the age of 14 , I went to Marina , and I was with my other girls , My ex boyfee ; Jepon was inside and he doesnt have any homeleave so yeaa , I went out with my girls . At night , we thought of spending our night outside , I never thought we would bumped again .

You called me , and asked me alot of random question . I was like , hmmm . okehokeh.

Then , I hate talking to you . out of blue . But still , you throw some smile on your face .

Perhaps , I thought , that would be the last time , I met up with you .

I get to know this one girl called Liza and she asked me to tagged along with her to Marina and I never knew we're going out together .

Walked with you , buy some liquor and off to drink .

When I sat down alone , You started the conversation .

Ikiy : Err , Baby ! You single ? ( muke selambeerr ajee )

Baby : Errr .. Yup , why ?

Ikiy : Ohh tark de . Tark kan tarkde mataey kan ? cute cute gini ?

Baby : ohh , I 've broke up recently and his with another girl now .

ikiy : ohh . ciannye . Nevermind , minum lagie uhs .

continue drinking and we thawn and you take good care of me . You were so sweet . Till then , we contacted eachother . I never knew that you do had a crush with me too . So yeaa , it was 050909 , the day all of us when out again . You came infront of me , talking to me , and declared to me , how you feel and you kiss my cheek when I was talking to Liza , and I kept quiet . keep on smiling .

The day , itself , we 're attached to eachother . You really open up my heart . You were so sweet .

I fall for you and we're together with eachother . Remembering those times , I had with you . Which you never even once hurt me .

Its only alot of rumours about you , but that was your past . I wish I could thurn back the time . to stay .

Forgive me for hurting you . I didnt mean too . Baby miss you so much . I really hope , we would thurn back the time together .

11 months I left abandoned you on a lonely road , You're still single and we met up in the club once again .

on , your birthday , I danced with you , one whole night . and Went the time , We had to go home , i dont feel like going home however to still stay with you for the whole night . Among all my ex 's , your the best .

I adore the way you 've treated me . taking good care of me , eventhough I asked for a brokeup .

I wish you were here by my side love . I miss those time . I need you seriously .

I'm sure this will come to an end . Hoping that , I would get you back once again.

Browsing to see my old folders , our photos , which really hurts me , and make me broke down .

Haishh . I wish things would be different love. I love you . Yes I do .

No one can really replaced you . Remember , we did talked about the replace ? And I've promised , eventhough , if there's another guy , as a passerby enter in my life , still , your love is the greatest and Its hard to be replaced by anyone. And its damn fcuking true .

I really wish to have you once again sayang ):

Hello earthlings . I wokeup at 12 plus pm , just now . It was so tiring . I didnt have enough rest lately . Now , I ad EyyaBigSis' crib lurrhhh kan . Ita , just now , I pass through your blogspot . Haishhh . I 'm sorry . I really am sorry for not understanding you . I'm so down yesterday after I heard from Mummy mouth . The words really makes me feel down However , I need to accept it . Cause She have too in order to live up my life for the future . Haishhh . How long am I gonna be an independant Lonely girl ? How far could I go ?
I'm speechless.
However , Yesterday , i Had some dicussion with mum . Here ;s the convo .

Baby : Mum . this march holiday , I aderh plan tawu . err, can I go Genting ?

Mum : ( muke cool ajee with her smile ) dgn saper ?

Baby : Dgn bbygirls . Ita , eyya , can ?

Mum : ok , you may go tapie you mestie kene jaga diri tawu .

After the convo , we went to our own room . Haishhh . I didnt get a chance to sit and spent my time talking to her .
Waited for kakak , we spent our entire night together like usually .

Currently , I'm missing someone ): I also dunnoe why . Haishh . But seriously , I miss him .
I didnt bother to text my FIANCE ~ hmms. Sick and tired .

Kkay , update soon ! :D

First of all , would like to inform you people :

Prepaid Low , can receive messages but don't expect any pick-up calls from me . Thanks (:

Hello earthlings ! :D Howhs you people doing out there ? Hehs . Random ajee -.- hahah . Okeyy , basically this post would be a long post for you people to read . Malas , then click the red [x] button , on the right top corner . You may kindly leave . Thankyou :D

Okey , I just reached home . Now check in : 320pm . Tuning on to : Azura[ not errie sang tawu ] . Chatting with Sehamini and i'm waiting for my bbygirls too text me , for the plans we had today .

Bhyyyy ! Khorang semuerh tyto mampus eyy ? -.- Harap-harap jatuh bawa katil , terhentak , benjol thrus check hp . Text Baby ! Hahah.

[ Bhy's no offence tawu . Baby just joking-joking ajee girls kuu ! (: ] Somehow , now , I felt that I wanted to go both of your cribs , and wake you girls up . Hahaha ! Right now also , I hangover -.- rabak perh siul ? hehs. Niee uhs , JIMBEAM Liquor botol besar , and I drank it neat .

ALONE sehh . Semuerh campur -.- but I mabuk abit cepat then them . Step heroin kan , dar senteng siul . But act as pernormal out of blue , I couldnt take it animore . Went to sleep .

Yesterday chapter in my life is : First of all , early in the morning , at 5am ,

Mommy walked in my room and wake me up .

A lil' short convo .

Mommy : Baby ! You want to go sch not today ?

Baby : Mommy , I'm tired uhs . Need to go Yck , its like wth ! However , Mom . Today is my sportday , so no need to come uhs .

( Just went back to sleep . Cant sleep . Check my phone . )

Received messages from unknown number . and 27 missed call from him .

its BOITATA ~

it doesnt even matter to me , I do miss him , as a friend not more -.- hahah ! Cause , yea . We 're meant to be friends and basically , he asked random question and I answered . Talk and talk . Out of blue , he said " Baby ! Jumperh tata nan ita uh " Then i said , " see how it goes lurhh kan , cause I need to go to my bigsis crib " with his word " ALAAAAAAAAAAA! " doesnt even make me melt and wanted to changed my my mind to meet him rather than my sister uhs . No no . Priority , Big Sis and Ita Baby . I love my both big - big Sister (: hehs.

Take my time , went online , chatted with Endraaa as well as Big Sis , then off to showered . " HAAAAAARUUUUUUMMMMMM " Hahaha . Ok , pathetic . I noe . hehs. Then afterall , get ready , make up , searched for clothes and straighten my hair . Packed my beg and off to Big Sis crib taking train (: hehs . Sweet uhs kan ? I make her wait . Hehs.

However , reached there , ItaBaby still isnt there , and she still ngorok- queen . hahah . Never , its ok uhs . Cause meeting starts at 230pm .

Waited for her , for almost 6 hours plus and however , she did apologized . Lurrhhh , bhy . Its ok uhs. Lambat atau cepat , tetap you thrun perh . Its kinda good enough tawu bhy . So yeaa , After meeting , we recorded some songs and off from there.

So while , meeting someone texted me . Kakak Natra ! Hahaha . She asked me to meet her , go eastcoast , cause she wanted to drink with me ever since a long time . Wowww ! I with my school books sehh . But I did go . Met her at Kallang Mrt , she fetched me first with her Husband , Abang Khai then we're off to their house . Abang khai , cooked ! Wowww . Yummie ! Very sedap I like . But I didnt eat much , cause I dont really have the apetite to eat . We waited for Ayie to reach Kallang then we 're off to east coast . hahah !

Ok , here is the best part . Hehs .

Ayie called and told abang khai , he reached under the void deck so we carried all the stuffs and I went down with Kakak Natra followed by Abang Khai .

First thing , First : Met up with Ayie , hehs . He shouted , " BABBYYYYYYYYY ! " then I was like , " AYIE ! " ( no expression , pathetic siul baby -.- ] then , he said , Baby nark hug and he opened up his arm so yea , I hugged him .However , the funniest part was , when Abang Khai kacau both of us " Ehh , due-due baju puteh , dar plan dulu per ? "

hahah ! It was a coincidence lurhh kan . So yeaa , Suddenly abang Khai told kakak Natra , " mummy , baby nan ayie sweet couple seyy " then I was like , ader ader ajee uhs . Kakak and abang niee . hehs.

Waited for the bus ,197 , off to Eastcoast , Went to macdonald and 7 -eleven , buy some coke and we're off to make tent.

Hahah ! I dont even , know how on earth to do the tent . Then , Ayie just asked me sit down and I listened to him . hehs.

HE WAS SO CUTE ! ((: I LOVE THE WAY HE TREATED ME SO WELL ENOUGH !(:

after that , settled everything then , we four sit together , and listen to the music . then , chit chat . I sat beside ayie , he told me too .

Kakak nan husband ofcourse lurhh kan and we drank . While drinking , wow ! this is the funniest part -.- siaksiak!

hahah ! Wanna know what , while drinking, he turned to me .

ayie : Baby . mciam manerh you kenal Adstar ?

Baby : Lurhh , kawan Msn ajee . Lagipon yang chalet kakak natra kan dea aderh . Ue nihh .

Ayie : Memang uhs aderh . I tanye ajee .

( wind blow , my hair messy . he clipped my hair properly ) sweet kan ?

i never knew that kakak and abang , was looking at us tawu . Cause , I and ayie , talked softly and we communicate with only we both . Sat infront of eachother . Eye to eye . Ohh my ! Boleh , jatuh cinta siul tuh namerh nya . hehs . Then abang khai said .

abang khai : Mummy , baby nan ayie sweet couple kan ? Jadie mataey sudah khorang .

Me : ( giving abang this face -.- ) uhh ?

Kakak Natra : ( smilesmile ) tuh uhs. Khorang sweet sehh . Mataey uhs khorang .

Ayie : he just smile and laugh and look at me . ( i was like " question mark siul " )

mabuk alrd , like hell. He told me , to lied down to him , so yeaa , I did . He accompanied me everywhere seh . Sweet keper ? hahah .

Afterall , we talked about the one thing happen at the chalet which is 3 months back . So yeaa , Old stories . hehs.

I mabuk rabak , he accompanied me , and told me to sleep . Kakak and abang khai , jaga baby . The part yang kelakar , while drinking , when they said , I drank too much . Masih boleh tahan , neat pulak tuhh . Baby dar mabuk tark tawu cerita lagie kan ? hehs. Then abang khai talked to ayie .

abang khai : baby nak lagie ?

baby : apape boleh abang ((:

( he put the drink , i drag . hahaha ! )

** semuerh muka dar " ?? "

kakak natra : aink ?! cepat ? padahal neat boleh tahan . Kiterh minum yang mix niee , dar tipsy .

i laughed .

ayie : Tuh uhs . Baby boleh tahan ? Heavy paa ?

Abang khai : kau tengok , aku letak untuk dea minum , sekejap dar best . Bagus siul . Kalau laen kali , tark boleh ahbes minum , kasi phat dea . hahah !

** everyone laughed including me *

They then called me : Liquor Machine -.- hahahah !

wow ! I knocked out at 4 plus am , damn tired . Kepala berat alrd . Then I slept , wake up late . Everyone kejut me , while I was sleeping . Tark bangun - bangun . hehs . Then , I wokeup , kakak kejut , cause nark tutup tent . Dhorang dar mandi . Then , I asked , kakak , whye you all basah sehh ? Tark ajak adek mandie ? hehs. Blur jap uhs .

kakak natra : kejut punye kejut . bukan bangun .

Ayie : he approached me and he said " Good morning bhy ! " hehs. with his sweet smile .

Baby : Morning !((:

Abangkhai : Baby tyto tark panas eh ? Knocked out rabak pe ? hehs. Tired uhs .

i just shaked my head , up and down . Maseh hangover -.- hehs .

afterall , ayie told me to bath laut with him , i actually scared tawu . Then he said , masuk jee. hehs .

then i say , urhhh . tark pe - tarkpe . hehs . However , he gave me the confidence so I went in with him .

Thrus : I maen laut , and told him .

baby : You ! Tarkmu lepaskan i shorang - shorang kalau nark masuk dalam lagie tawu .

ayie : Tawu , I promiseh you . Pegang tangan I . Yok !

Baby : Then , baby masuk lorhhh . i trust you tawu . Jangan lepaskan tangan i . I tarktawu berenang .

Ayie : Ye sayang ! I promiseh.

washed up and get ready to go home . Before that , we went to the nearest 7-eleven to buy something to eat . Ayie , suap me mamam . Very sweet then we walked . Thrus this topic keluar .

abang khai : Bhy ! Ahsal baby tyto kn , tark panas , satu berpeluh pun tarkde ? Sejuk ajee .

Baby : Eh ? Baby tark berpeluh ker ?

ayie : Uh - huh lurhh . You tark berpeluh pon , peha you sejuk when I nark kejut you bangun tadie .

Kakak Natra : hahah ! Apedaaa . Kakak sendiri panas , sampai berpeluh - peluh .

Abang khai : Baby niee betul - betul damn weird tawu .

Baby : hehs . aper daa . manerh aderh -.-

Ayie : Dar liquor machine . orang yang lelaki pon boleh kalah kalau minum nan you .

Kakak Natra : Tuh uhs . Thrus , tyto pon nyeyak . cool ajee.

Abang khai : tuh uhs . Dar liquor machine , tyto tark berpeluh . aperh dah . You 're such a weird gerl . hahah !

Then , I went back , take 961 from Kallang . Abang and kakak sent me . cause Ayie , need to go another bus stop which is the opposite side. Before when back , salam - salam kan kan kan ? went come to me , in the end . Ayie came , and salam me , so I salam him as pernormal like always lurhh . Friends salam , skalie he want a hug , then I gave him . He then , kiss me , on my forehead , and cheek . Ohh so sweet sehh him ! ((: He texted me his whereabouts , so sweet uhs dea . So yeaa , now baby want to eat first .

End of yesterday chapter (: Do update me if there;s anything . And furthermore , remember , my prepaid low , cant pick up calls . can receive messages as well as missed calls. Thankyou (: Bhy Monsterku ! Familia . I miss you girls ~

Jatuh katil lurhhh , jatuh pleaseeee ! (:

Mengapa terjadie perpisahan ini ?

You must answer that Question , not me . I didnt text you cause of a reason . Basically , I 'm down . Seriously am Fcuking down . You've broke my heart into pieces . You dont even know , Whatchu supposed to do . How am I qonna treat you well ?
I 've repeatedly told you , that I cant show it and I cant give that . Furthermore , I couldnt keep you any longer .
Someone earn my heart . however , we dont think of going far . I 'm still studying . I need him .
As a close friend of mine , who lend his shoulder to me , Wipe my tears away . Be there and helped me out with my studies . Understanding me too well . I dont need you nimore -.- Maybe , i m saying it out of anger. But somehow , You really broke my heart , Seriously love ; Kau dar buat aku benci kau . Krana tingkah laku kau . Aperh yang aku benci , Kau buat . Aperh kau suka , aku tark mampu buat .

I do have my own princip . Stop , hurting me . So , I guess , i 've made my choice to walk away .
and thats what I 'm doing I hadd enough with all the shits you 've been throwing . I couldnt stand it nimore .
I cant be far from my two babies . You hate them , as well as hating me . So yeaa , Leave me alone -.-
I dont need you nimore . Get lose .
I 'm abundantly sorry . I had enough , being nice . You're extremely over the limit .
I can stand by my own feet . Get lost !

Texting with Afiq as well as EyyaBaby ;

Ohh basically , I thought of taking Medical Cert today as I didnt attend School but however , I 'm too damn fcuking tired to consult doctor cause to me , I felt as thought , It was a waste of my precious time and Money . However , I'm waiting for Babygirls to wake up .
Texting with eyya , waiting for ita to wakeup siul . Hahahaha !

Eyya : Aku tark tawu kau nark jumperh aku phat ner ? Kau dapat contact Ita ?
Me : tyto mampus -.- hahahah ! Harap - harap dea tergolek - golek jatuh smpai bawa katil . Thrus terbangun , check hp , call kiterh . hehs .

Cute kan convo kiterh ? Tuh uhs , waiting for ita niee . Tyto tark ingat dunia si kateqq niee . Hahahah ! Cepat - cepatan uhs bangun -.-
Kiterh nqa tunggu . Nark meet . Eyya dar sebuk skola , Kadang - kala ajee dapat jumperh tawu ! hmms .
Btw , Basically , Monster Familia ; dont forget this Saturday tawuu ! hehs .
Eyya having probs siket , so we discuss this soon okayy ?
So yeaaa ! :D Apape update lorhh .
Text baby tawpon blog ok ? Iloveyou Girls !

Heyyy Earthlings ! :D Today my mood currently : Down .

I 'm having this stomach pain , once again . Its hurting me . I simply , Couldnt take it nimore -.- I 'm really am sorry for not attending school regularly . I swear , My stomach hurts like hell . I dunnoe why .

Simply , because , I ate something early in the morning , and I Keep on passing Motion . I wanna ask Mummy , for money .

Texted ItaBaby , dimanerh dea ? Haishhh .

Tarkde pon . Haiyo . Text me soon !

I nark you teman I go polyclinic . Kimakkkk ! Saket siul -.-

NotoriousKyd ! She online , however , She didnt even wanna repli me at MSN .

She didnt miss me is it ? I called her , She never pick up . I texted her , She never reply my text message .

Why ? Why are you avoiding me ? Am I doing Something which You started to hate and avoid me ?

Whats wrong seyy ?

I miss you akak ! ):

I miss those times , I had with you . Where you ? Whenever I need you now ? Haishh .

Just remember , how far you are , your image still in my mind . I miss you .

EyyaSeraphiel ! I understand your situations for now . Perhaps , I really want you to get a good grades for all your examinations okayy ?

Despite , less time spending together we can still get close , by texting eachother like always .

Its okayy , dont feel guilty when you're not around for me .

ItaBaby is there . She's my company for now .

We both do miss you .

ItaBaby ! I really appreciate you . Thanks for being there whenever I need you .

Thanks for fetching me outside school the day before when I had some conflicts with one of my classmate .

Who really pissed me off -.- However , I'm still silence .

For now , Eventhough , Eyya busy with her sch stuffs as well as Fyq , We do understand right ?

It doesnt matter .

I really had fun with you .

Monster Familia ; We will be having some outing during this March Holiday . I'll be informing you girls and seeing the schedule for the three of us ayee ? We 'll be meeting up eachother . You girls , may bring your boys along . Like me , I wouldnt uhs . I want to spent my time only with you two girls rather than , Spending my time with him . Haishh . Tired uhs .

So basically , for now , I 'm planning for us . Haishhh .

didnt attend school today ; basically mum nagging and Blabbering . Haish . ( Pekakkan telinga jee -.- )

She told me , to go to Polyclinic , ofcourse , I 'm going !

Cause , its hurting . Haishh . I simply , couldnt take it nimore .

What the hell ! Do me a favour , plishh !

Stomach cramp . Appendix . Stupid siaa -.-

Aku tark pernah menyesal kembali dengan kau tapie perangai kau menjadi-jadi . Aku dah banyak bersabar smpai aku dar tark bulley bersabar -.- kau sakit kan hatie aku . Kau buat aku benci phat kau . Aperh maksud kau ? 11 bulan niee , kau sanggup buat aku niee mciam ?
Aperh lagie kau nark ? Tark cukop perh siak ? Memang , aku tarkleh kasi , Kau nark aku buat aper ? Paksa diri aku ? Salah siul , kalau aku buat gituu . Aku tark bulley , dan tark mungkin . Kalau apape aku buat , akan terjadi , kali kedua , aku tark sanggup . Cukup uhs , saket hatie aku .
Aku dar tark bulley , ikut kan kehendak kau . Kau tawu , aku benci , bilerh kau buat gituu . Aku diam , tark bererti , aku suka dan tak kesah tetapi aku dar penart , malas tawuu . Bilerh kau berulang - ulang kali . Naek berbuih buih mulot aku . Aku rasa , kalau aku bobal nan BINATANG pon , dea paham nan aku uhs siul . Kau dar keterlaluan . Aku dar putus asa . Kau salahkan aku , sebab aku tark tukar phat FB nan Tagged aku perh status , beh kau ? Aku dar tukar siul . Sekarang , kau masih nak salah kan aku , kau katerh aku tark tukar .
Kau potek perh siak ? Bukak duerh biji mata kau , besar - besar uhs . siul !
Buto uhs , aku dar penart . Aku give up . Seriously .

and today , I received letter from e prison as well as , ItaBaby come over my crib . Fetched me from school . So sweet of her .
EyyaBaby , busy with her private O 's . I understand . We understand . Study hard tawuuu ! Achieve good grades babe~
I love you ! :D
Eventhough , how hard we still beat as one .

Listening : Its not goodbye .

Currently mood : Down , Fed up !

what's the commotion about ? Why are you people , bothering people who didnt even create trouble with you ?
There isnt any other stuffs that you people can occupy your time . Basically , I 'm pissed off .
Come on uhs , your people , big enough to think , whats the right and wrong thing that you have to do .
I managed to stayed away from trouble for now . Yup , Its damn true . But somehow , your creating trouble with both of babygirls means you people asking me to invite in cause , they are like my blood tied .
So what ? If , they are in a relationship ? They are fated and nobody , could stop them . They are happy now being with eachother , get a life and stop listening about people bad-mouthing them . Get a better life ahead okayy ?
And another one more babygirl of mine , So what if her size isnt thin ? It doesnt matter , its you who wanted to accept her or not .
You told me , you love her but not because of her size so basically , if you dont need her or love her nimore , Stop contacting her .
Stop pretending that you're just sending a wrong messages to her every single day . You told her , you wanted to delete her number , somehow if you have deleted her number , probably , you wouldnt text her and furthermore , stop denying that you do miss her .
I'm sick and tired hearing this , dont let me come straight to your face , and give a tight slap to your mother fcuker face . Get it clear ?!
and to the girls , Read up , open your eyes widely !
Get this straight in your head , I will surely meet you one day . So basically , dont test my patience and dont let me , come straight to your face , and blush out everything . Understand ? I 'm still being patience , dont you ever dare to even try , pissing me off .

To this one ex of mine ;
Stop testing my patience , get it ? I 'm pissing off you get it ? I regret to know you . Havent you had enough of hurting me ? I 'm abundantly tired . What the hell , you're throwing shits towards me . Just shut your mother fucker mouth ! Understand ? I hate you . forever will i .
I 'm to nice for you , to even step over my head , you dickhead ! Nabei .

listening to : Luahan hati terluka.

Doing : Check tagged , and doing my hair ( feels like gg for a haircut )

Itababy here , we 're waiting for EyyaBaby as well as Fyq Gilerh to come my crib .

Ohh yea , today hopefully would be like a reunion for me , fyq and eyya . Ohh , simply gonna be happy today . I quarrelled with Fiance again while texting . It doesnt matters nimore to me . i'm sick and abundantly tired , I swear siul . Haishhh !

No matter , how hard I 've tried to understand you simply you dont appreciate it so i 've to let it be .

I had enough , i swear . Sick and tired . Now , you can do whatever you like .

Time pass , I miss Ikiy and Ice . I dunnoe why . I really miss them both . Wishing them would be by my side for now .

Ice : where have you been ? Why you didnt text me ? I really hope , you 're having a happy life for now .

Ikiy : Ohh , my ! I miss you so much . Where you ? What are you doing ? I hope everything gonna be fine .

I miss you ! really do !

However , Notorious Kyd !

I miss you akak . Where are you ? I wish you would be right here by my side for now .

I'm sorry , I keep on skipping school nowadays . I really do .

Sorry love .

for now , I really am happy to have you both , babygerls . Thanks for being there . 3 of us , is enough love ! :D I love you ! I swear .

Hope that our friendship lastlong ! :D

Check in : 721am

Venue : in my bedroom .

Currently mood : Down , mad / mixture feelings .

I wokeup early in the morning , as usual searched for my phone and went to the toilet to washed up . However , I wokeup wasnt a great day for me . Why must this continue on this way ? Felt so heartbroken with the way , you treated me . I went to bed , without telling him brings difficuilty in life . He replied my text message for so long. I 've been waiting till , I felt asleep . Haishh . Why must we keep on quarrel each day ?
Oh , why must there's always be my girls who you keep on pouring out whenever we quarrel ?
They arent at fault and I was to be blame . I wanted to meet up with them as always , so is it a big deal for you ?
However , you used to treat me this way . Must it be my mistake ?
You wanted me to stay home , however , you should know , I did but somehow , I need to be with my girls .
Yup , they are my first priority and I cant deny that .
You used to abandoned me , quarrel with me , and left me staying at home alone.
Now , you wanted me to be there for you like before .

I dont wish to get hurt , and I dont want history repeats itself .

So yeaa , If you can make it like before when I 'm always free for you and your out with your boys .

So yeaa , Let it be me . I 'm out with my girls for now and You was being caged due to your probhation .

Why must I been pulled away ?

I simply dont understand you , or was it , you ?

You making me confused . Isnt there , any one day , you can be treating me nicely ?

I 'm hurt , heartbroken , mad , depression !

I swear . Maybe I couldnt cope it due to , Stop having relationship for so long.

So yeaa . Perhaps , you must realized that . I dont wish to rely on you but you must also know ,

Why it thurns out this way , It was automatically .

I never trust you , and I know , you know that . It will never happen for me to trust someone who used to hurt me badly .

abandoned me alone .

Forever , it will never be a revenge to me . I swear . I love you so much .

Just bare that in mind .

ALRIGHT ?

I felt i 'm being caged and i Felt as though , i never felt freedom when he came to my life , why ?
who am i to you ? we keep on quarrelling , yes , its a part and puzzle of lovelife . and there's always an obstacles that I have to go through with you but somehow , I cant make it through . I 'm not being myself . And I 'm hurt with your harsh words.
I love you , and you told me that I didnt . You keep on saying the opposite ways of mine , why ?
It never been easy for me . I never gonna accept a person , if i really dont even think of appreciating him as well as , being in love .
It never been that easy . with the pains you give me . The shits , you 've thrown , i kept silence.
hopefully , i would want to see you realize how much i love you .
i 've tried to be there , to show you that I care . to be there for everything . The doubts you went through , but somehow , Why cant you even realize that ? Who am i to you ? What you want ? Am i not good enough for you ?
why are you giving me the shits , which you know , i cant qo through that much ?
I 'm fighting for my rights .
I 've promise to stay , yes I did despite numerous hurting from you .
simply , you dont even care , bother about it . why ?
I 'm pulling through , all the shits , please , dont treat me this way . Can ?
I 'm asking you , one simple favour .
Say , You love me , for the rest of your life , thousands / billion , but somehow , words doesnt makes any a sense , I need you to show it by reactions .
Where are you ? Whenever I 'm down ? Whereas , you throw shits towards me .

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