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hello teman teman ku :) selamat pagi deh !
baby tak sleep darie smlm sey , i cannot close my eyes.
so yea. malam mciam siak tadi-.-
i muntah )': hais. nie sampai berair sey mata i .
hais )': nd my perot maken saket , alaaa. biase nak besar kan -.-
time check in : 0700am genap.

baby tgh text -ing nan ira :) da lame tak jumpe dea , rindu pulak .
dengar dengar harry da terbang .
hmm, wish dea luck je :} hehe ^^ abang abang NS ler kan .
& ira pon otw to work . hehe * kekal nan kerja seh member :}
& not to forget , ako pon aderh interview nantiy .
hais , terbang jauh siol ako .
matahari da terbit , ako maseh tak tido tido.
burung hantu betol ako .
pagi-pagi, feeq da call ako. hehe*
dea otw to meeting :} instructor kate kan .
hmmpf ! okay lerr tuh ~
tak jadie slack nan dea. hehe. nak klua nan kakak.
teman dea pergi sch (: hmms !
smlm , aku rasa husband ako pon minum ,
cause dea pergi jumpe ratna. hais.
no words that i can describe now (:
so yea, silence loh :D better kan ?
betol tak ? hehe *
& ako tau , nie anak perempuan .
nenek pon cakap sey ,
hehe ^^ pusat ako pon da termasuk sedalam-dalamnya.
haha ! ape mau cakap kan ?
& ako kalau boleh tak nak give birth sey , hehe ^^
takot dehh ! perit ! sumpa ! conferm~ maha ~ conferm babe :)

so yea, updating my blog once again , if i feel like updating .
tadi pergi youtube , aku tgk aku perform .
haha ! aderh video dea. hehe ^^
malu siol . tuh waktu husband masuk . hais.
aku terkenang balek siol , kenangan lalu ~ hehe ^^
takleh lupa kan , ape terjadi wakto tuh .
aku da upload pat fb ! korang tgk kay ?

hehe ^^ takecare lerrr. mornight ! :D

Hello.

i just finished updating husband 's blog post , as i dont wish to see his blog post dusty :)

sorry sayang ; tak bilang you . i cuma random je . mendak lerrr ~ sebab tuh i update kan jugak :D
hoping you wouldnt mind , okay sayang ? :)

teman teman aku ; bedek lerr kalau aku tak rindu husband aku kan . hmms ! ofcourse ~

alerrrr, cute peh nurul masuk bilek ~ hehe ^^ i could imagine , how i become a mother :D
hehe ^^ jap , kene kasi nurul sleep jap , tepuk dea jap :D update again , okay ?

awhile more :)

okay , done :D

cute lerr dea , i baru ahbes tepuk dea to lala land dea :)

hmm . so yea; da prepare jadi mak peh baby ? hehe *

oh yea; tomorrow will be going out to Nanyang Poly first & off for interview .

akak accompanying me :} thanks sayang ! :D
after updating my blog ; update blog dea pulak !

kaypoh ; nak jugak ~ huhu ! ^^

oh yea. husband;

let me tell you this.

all i ever wanted from you was :

` * sincere , faithful , understanding.

- sayang ; i bilang you eh , i tak perlu kan you untuk tipu i . like seriously :/
hais. i nak you berubah , memang you tgh mencuba , tapie susah .

memang nak jadi nakal senang rehan , nak jadi baek semula , memang sukar.

i didnt expect 100% from you ;

i just wish you to see the changes to become better in you .

okay, i cant force you betol tak ? im telling you je.

its for your own good jugak.

dalam percintaan ini , memang kita berdua ada kesilapan.

pertama ; you cuba nak berubah , dan i mendesak dan tak paham apa yang you ingin kan.

kedua ; i senang marah terhadap diri you , dan tahap kesabaran you telah berakhir.

you ; i know you want me to understand you . You need space , you still want to enjoy also.

All i need from you was not to lie and be honest .

Eventhough sometimes, truth gonna be hurtful but its better .

like seriously ; love , just tell me the truth okay ? :)
its better tau sayang . seriously .

& i want you to know ; afterall the conflicts that we both had,

we have to trust in eachother (: to make our love ; sucess ~

i hate it when you didnt confront me , and you just burst out just like that .

Sayang ; we both have to talk things out , eventhough the truth gonna hurt sayang.

okay ? be strong , like what you've said to me before.

i love only you ; and thats fucking true sayang . bare that in mind.

whatever comes between us both ;

we have to go through .

I love you , and i know you love me too .

so yea; we just be strong , :)
things gonna be smooth soon .

insyallah; amin ! ~

Hello daily readers baby ^^
currently at my cousin 's crib { kakak dayah }
planned to meet her up just now .
& it was unbelievable that i could bumped into EiraLondon babygirl ku earlier on at TiongBahru while buying my prepaid card & cigarette for myself .
oh damn , i miss her ): kiter slack soon tau !
apape picet ~ oh , she said , my tummy so big -.-
okay , i see :} im just too speechless.
like seriously , its obvious now .

oh yea, heard from shasha babe , that husband going out , drinking once again :}
so yea, have loads of fun okay ?
ill be going out on saturday ? maybe not.
see how it goes but there's plenty of plan .
^^ tmr , feeq nak slack with me , as we dar lame tak jumpe.
i see how it goes kay ?

ive brought new shirts for myself :}
bigger size , tutup perot deh ~
nak klua kan ,
so yea. still qonna dress up like always :Dbut a different personality ofcourse :}
oh , ya ! friday planned to sleepover at Tiongbahru , at granny's crib :}
hehe^^ afterall , teman her go pasar loh :D
what else ? cucu yang rajin , menemani nenek :D
haha ! oh , yea. let me start with what i did today okay ?

Firstly , i woke up at 10am , forgotten to switch off my lappy ,
and i fall asleep at 6am .
will chatting with my foes.
afterall , i woke up and continue chatting , as they still online.
thought of meeting feeq but im tired.
so yea, plan being cancelled.
Therefore, i sat at home , until 430pm .
was websms-ing with mummy & she told me that grandparents missed me so much and told me to pay a visit ,
so i did . At around 4pm , i was getting ready and off at 530pm .
Took train , in the train -.- pathetic siol .
like blind seh , that person ,
with my gold ring on my 3rd finger as well as my big stomach ,
still asking number -.- i ignored .
haha ! pathetic , bobal lerr kau sorang .
Then , i stopped by at Tiongbahru and 5 minutes walked to grandparents' crib while puffing .
reached , only granny and afterall , i met up with grandpa , came along abai .
hehe^^ so yea, its been a long time ever since , i did eat her cooking :}
i miss seh , so yea . Ayam masak cili padii :D Wow !
mind - blowing , i swear . Was on the phone , and mummy told me she transferred me $ 50 for my expenses.
I thanked her and told her , i wanted to buy prepaid .
hehe^^ so yea, I went out from granny crib at around 830pm , and i withdraw money and brought
two prepaid cards :D and also ciggarette. Bumped into Anna , Alip & Eira London .
awwww, i miss her :{
afterall , we both took-ed train together as she wanted to go to Cck and im off homey :}
so yea, train-ed down together and we had some histories conversation.
I miss that moments.
hehe ^^ then , she dropped first , followed by me.
I was texting with kakak dayah , at that period of time and planned to meet her up at Causeway Point , as she was there too.
Met Mama mok , Nurul , Syira as well as Kakak dayah and we headed back to Kakak dayah 's crib at around 930pm ,
and forgotten to buy nugget. So we both went down to Vista Point and we sat down and had some private conversations ,
and we headed home :} afterall , now , she 's preparing for her examinations tomorrow.
Good luck , sayang ! :D
I know , you can do it .
Husband , not texting / call me at all .
Soyea, i cant say much .
Reached home , On lappy and chatted with Saza { husband cousin} and FeeqAstro { husband's brother} ,
and still till now :D chatted with Shasha awhile agp. Sweet , have fun jyeah ?
So yea, had nothing much to update :D
So , will be updating soon !
takecare bey bey ! :D About my child , nothing much to update .
Kicking je .
Kacau mummy je eh you ! hehe ^^
14 July , i may not be qoing , i guess.
See how it goes okay ?
So yea, not to forget , Ill be working at : Guardian for the time being .
Insyallah , everything would be fine.

Eyya: Oh , babe ! :D Tmr , apape picet jyeah ? Kalau free, kite bertemu . As you pon nak thrun sini kan , stargazing , conferm conferm nan fyq . So yea happy to see you happy :D Im doing fine , dont worry :} Making my time packed for now :D

Time check in : 4:24pm
Siaping now :D
Goin' out beybey !

Sisterlove {eyya} ; Text me tau , once wakeup. I'll be waiting :}

True love is shown when you try to help another become a better person and unconditional love is shown when you still love them even if they refuse to change.

Many times it's necessary to "let go" of a loved one, while still loving them unconditionally, because they refuse to take the necessary steps to improve. An example of this would be an alcoholic or drug addict. You still love the person, but when they refuse to work at overcoming their addiction or don't care about themselves or who they're hurting, you must let go. Sometimes this means, letting them spiral down until they hit rock bottom. Often you get hurt in the process because you love them and don't want to see them go down this road, so loving unconditionally also means that you'll be there for them when they're ready to try again.

Love isn't an emotion or feeling - it's a choice. This is especially true with unconditional love. In relationships, you show unconditional love by overlooking petty mistakes and forgoing judgment and grudges. Unconditional love requires self-sacrifice and forgiveness on your part and it's through unconditional love that those you care about will change for the better.

Hello to babyputeriy's daily readers!

Dayah here updating her post for the night! =))

With the deal made, we update fo' each others' blogg, she'd done with hers, and now, I'm fulfilling mine =)

Babyputeriy is my lovely cuzzie, by the wae. =)

Im studying currently. So, while blogging her's, im actually relaxing.

No matter who she is, what she does,

she'll still be my darling.

The one i call, 'adik'.

Fo' what happened to her currently,

I doakan for the best and hope that the sufferings will come to an end.

As much as im concern,

I know, i'd broke that one and only trust of hers.

But, that, i hope will her realise,

how much i wanted to make the gap closer.

No matter what, till storm and tide,

nothing could separate the cousin-ly, sister-ly love that we had fo' each other.

I do love her, till eternity.

And i hope fo' the best in her endeavours.

Nothing much to expect,

but just every smile in whatever you do.

Fo' what awaits you in the future, do your ultimate best and be stronger.

Cause, i know, only you,

you, yourself, will win the race.

Don't let things come in between you,

stop you from what you had decided earlier.

No one, including me or whoever, could stop you, only one,

the inner you.

Fo' her lovely companions,

do take good, best, ultimate care of Babyputeriy.

Much love and care,

I love you,dear.

Signing off,

Dayah <3

Hello.
Currently chatting with Saza { husband cousin } as well as Eyya Serahiel {sisterlove ku }.
and im all alone at homey )': boring pe ?
one whole day being stuck here in my room .
nothing much to do .
cause basically , if i was about to go out also ,
im a bit lazy to do so.
hehe^^ im not like i used to be .
im too lazy now :} everyone knows that now.
even husband too. pathetic kan kau myra ?
haha ! -.-''

my right eye below, keep on twitching -.-'
& i felt irritated about it.
I simply dont know why , it was always like this .
Pathetic sey !
Now, my prepaid low.
thought of texting husband 's mom phone ,
but then , i know, he wouldnt be at homey at this hour.
Its okay :} i know, i must give him space.
hmm. His a guy afterall, have to be have some space with friends though.

I cant deny , ive been missing him so much .
but somehow , i have to be strong ,
like what he used to say, cause his busy handling something at homey.
So i must understand that.

Hey, looking at my stomach everynight , reminds me of him ):
and seriously , my stomach growing bigger each day ,
even im afraid to look at it
I dont know why ,
whats wrong , im too afraid to look at it .
Cause it was so unbelievable that I could have this big tummy now at this age.
Hmm. but what can i say ?
Still , Its my child in there ^^
opps, error. Our child kn bbbyyyyy ?
HAHAHA!
Your child understands me so much
Everytime , i miss you , or breaking down ,
I swear , the child is kicking my stomach -.-'
and i will feel the heartbeat .
hehe ^^ but what can i say ?

Im happy to feel it . I guess, if husband was here ,
he was so damn happy & i could see him smiling with enjoyment.
Oh my ! i SWEAR , sape nie nak jumpe ako ?
Keep on twitching je .
Irritating tau ! Nak jumpe, jumpe je lerr.
hais. Twitch , twitch ! -.-''
Binget baby ~

im waiting for mummy to topup my prepaid ,
i guess she would . Hopefully please ?

& husband ; meet soon kay ?

Writting letters to Papa :}

i miss him )':

hello.

im bored at home.
staying home one whole day , doing nothing much .
not even going out to block 19.
my prepaid gone ! -.-''
telur telur ! );
takpetakpe. its okay ,
so no one can contact me :}

had planned just now to meet IninDolly'Apek tomorrow and both of us going for interview at Orchard Road.
I cant stay on like this.
Felt like no life -.-'
Seriously , no money , no meaning.
& i put burdens to my mum.

i was oh the phone with husband ,
and half way through , my phone put down by itself.
as my prepaid gone !
So yea;
What i wanted to say was just take good care of yourself.
He told me , his meeting Shasha , so yea :}
have fun slacking .

Not to forget , i wanted to post this clearly ,
i had enough misunderstandings , so yea.
Let me tell you & let my husband read this too.

I know , we know eachother before i know him but that doesnt mean that we both had been together once,
will be repeating it again.
You know, yourself that Im having some conflicts with husband , and you came by in my life once again thought that you could earn my heart . I seriously want to clearify this.

I couldnt accept you back ,
eventhough husband did gave me shits.
What is called relationship " without having conflicts, misunderstands , heartpain.
Eventhough if i would be with you ,
things would be the same.
whereby , i would be facing this doubt with you .
& it can never be easy for me to replaced my husband with you .
You've did you're best to earn my heart ,
but im sorry .
You cant earn my heart .
Still , i wouldnt have that space for you .
even a little.
I couldnt .
All i wanted you to know is ;

I wouldnt want to repeat the same mistakes.
I dont want to get hurt ,
i dont want you to get hurt .
& i know , im the one who doesnt appreciate your love in the past ,
and flirts around and let go of you .
but it was few years back & now, im totally different .
I cant fall in love with anyone that easily like i used too.
I couldnt accept you ,

You're just a friend of mine.
A close friend indeed.
My heart now been shut .
Im moving on with husband.
& i know, you're hurt and i felt you know it had been chaotic now.
That you're trying to earn my heart but husband wins it .
Im sorry .

Eventhough , if husband , was to leave me ,
Im sorry , you cant earn my heart .
Totally shut.

& The name that had been engrave is : Muhammad Raikhan Bin Rosli .
Only him , and i dont wish because of you ,
and our histories , i and him had conflicts with eachother.
Im sorry ,
just move on ,
find someone which worth .
Dont waste your precious time , staying on with me.
cause , all i know,
i will not come back to you .

Hello.

as for today ;

this post is specially for Bella Keciq Sotsot <3 *
Happy birthday sayang ~

Harapan kakak ,

bella berjaya dengan aper jua yang bella lakukan okay ?

Study hard ,

rmbr , what ive used to say to you tau :}

apape , just beep akak ,

share it with me :}
i will help you to qo okay ?

Kakak Sayang Bella.

Time check in at : 3:27am.
& i just finished video calling with husband.
his updating his blog now ,
as well as i am.

I should have been sleeping now.

But i couldnt sleep as i couldnt shut my eyes even how hard i tried.

earlier on, ive updated husband blog post as he requested & also changed him to a new blogskin.

But that was just temporary , will find him a new one instead.

Was chatting with husband , kyd , inin , Eyya :}

Earlier today ,

i was out with :

` YayahDolly, IninDolly'Apek, Saza, Akim> kakak Dynie.

before that , i was supposed to meet yayahdolly at 8am but i woke up late at 830am.

I was still at shunfu road. Oh damn, i called her up ,

and eventually she was earlier than me.

Thank god, she wasnt pissed off. Ive been letting her wait for me , numerous time.

Sorry tau babe !

Inin , wasnt there so yea, I let it be.

Cause Inin , will be meeting us abit later.

So , i met Yayahdolly at 930am , and we both headed to Civic center to buy breakfast

but i had no appetite to eat -.-' pathetic right ?

We smoked , and took 903 to my crib.

Reached , the house was full of messed-.-'

& abai sleeping with the doors open. But I let it be :}

and i headed to my room with Yayahdolly .

First thingy, i switch on my laptop & bluetooth saturday 's pictures and was having some fun ,

but my mind was thinking about husband.

I tried not to but it seems hard.

and after a few hours, Yayahdolly had went to her lala land, and i was beside,

watching a video of "abortion".

Tears rolled down my cheeks , and i started to hold on to my stomach.

Hais, I dont feel like doing that.

Afterall, I was feeling so sleepy , boredom.

And im off sleeping too.

Woke up at around 4pm and i was preparing myself to meet Inin & Saza.

Took bus 903 at around 5pm and off to Bns and Burger king.

They thought of going to have their dinner ,

so i tagged along.

I bumped into Ahkenciner & had some conversation and off to meet kakak dynie at 8pm under her block .

and she was not feeling well. Pity her.

afterall , we both reflect something ,

and i felt this is what called karma -.-

pathetic i know.

but somehow, abai . its all your fault.

hais, neh . I dont think abai would to be blame.

am i right ?

Hais, okay.

While talking , my phone rang / text messages and phone calls been received.

I ignored for a moment.

Ive this temptation to reply , but i didnt .

Until i received phone calls from saza.

and she told me everything.

I guess, it was both of us, having complicated stuff now.

But somehow, love.

I did my best , and you did your best .

but both of us, didnt get eachother points until saza helped out with this.

we need to settle things down.

and afterall , we did.

Both of us, apologized once again.

Why must we keep quarrelling ?

Is this the obstacles ?

Yes , i guess.

So yea, let me tell you .

This is my life.

Im the one , who knows who im in love with .

I dont love him nor have feelings for him .

all i wanted was you.

I love you .

i couldnt deny , how much i love you .

I Swear .

Im doing my best to be strong .

eventhough , i know, im falling down now.

p/s: I dont love anyone , and no one could replace that. Im the one , whose going through this relationship with you .

And im the one , whose in love with you . And i know , its my heart .

No use asking others about who i want to be with

Cause , im sure, you know very well .

How much i love you ,

isnt it ?

I miss you .

I miss the moments we had together.

I love you.

pukimak peh adeqboi Ridhwan !

Kao pikir ape siol ?

-.-''

fever , please go away !

irritating siol ~

takpetakpe.

Still ,

YAYAHDOLLY & ININDOLLY'APEK,

Kiter bertemu nantie :}

okays ?

Something came across my mind now,

and i feel like letting it out.

Somehow, You must also understand whereby ,

This is how I feel.

Every human beings have individual feelings ,

am i right ?

This is what You used to say to me when I dont understand you .

Yesterday night ,

While I was slacking ,

I received a phone calls from your bestgirlfriend.

And i was stucked when I heard that sentences came out from her mouth ,

But somehow,

I cant say much nimore.

Cause , Ive been repeatedly telling you not to do so ,

So its hard for me now.

I know , You wanted me to make You changed.

To motivate you .

But I dont think I can managed to do so ,

As I still remember , You yourself , needed me to change myself ,

so how can I eventually help you out , if i myself didnt change ?

am i right ?

I put my very best to make things went right but somehow , it difficult .

You simply dont understand me.

Hais.

Till it comes to my extend now,

I know. I should respect you ,

I know , Ive to listen to you .

for every sentences you've told me,

But i do have a life too.

As what You're doing now,

You needed friends,

so am i.

With the message , you 've sent me yesterday night using your bestgirlfriend phone'

" Bie ! Plz forgive me. I didnt mean to hurts u . But im doin tiz , is for your own good. Wanna you to realize je . U noe, how sad am i without you beside me. I hate myself . I taktau jaga bini . haizzzz ! "

To be honest , I was about to ignored it at first , as well as my prepaid low.

Cause , I know, It was all my fault.

And i know, I can never be good for you .

Never be nice for you .

Nor understanding you too.

All happens, now , I was all to blame for now.

Frankly , I did my best too .

& its not only you , feels as though , you're sad. Im right here too..

Come'on , what can I say ?

You know you're responsibility am i right ?

So as stated ,

it was on Sunday that you're coming back , then we'll see :}

Let me come into this thingy here ;

- dhy , have you ever thought that i love you so much ?

have you ever wonder how much you mean alot to me ?

Have you even care about , what I feel ?

I know , you and i .

we both have feelings.

Both of us , needs freedom ,

but come on somehow ,

You should know , dont come into an extend.

I know you felt pressurize.

You dont know , what to do .

Who to choose.

But somehow, Starting from now,

I will learnt to give in .

but that doesnt mean , that you can eventually do that continously , okay love :}

& for now, I feel as though Im feeling unappreciated.

You neglected me.

Maybe when it comes you're alone,

you will think of me , i guess.

So yea, sayang , Just think whats the best for you :}
i love you .

and i miss you .

p/s : I had my temperature done , 38.4 'c . im having a bad coughing , headache ,

as well as high fever .

My stomach -.-'' was so damn hot .

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