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I JUST DISCOVERED THAT ;

I COULDNT TRUST ANYONE . NOR HER -.-

INCLUDING MY OWN BOYFEE. ' WHY ?

CAUSE , ALL OF THEM ARE TWO FACES & SUCHA A LIAR -.-

HATRED !

ALL THIS , IS JUST A GAME TO HIM ;

HYPROCITE !

I GUESS. SO YEAAAAAAA ~

Hello daily readers^^

It had been since a week when I last update my blog .

I was so damn busy & my laptop under repair )':
Bored tau tau ! But lately , ive been spending my entire time with precious.

Not to forget with some of my foes.

Oh yesssah ! This Saturday , i couldnt wait for the time.

Cause , I will be going to club! {:
with precious | ndee & Keesha Baby ! :}

They gonna rock my world ~
I swear ! :D
Things had been going quite smooth between me&precious.

But it was abit rocky with foes.

I miss my family.

I miss my friends.

Yes, I cant deny.

Hmm. Okok , till here :}

update soon okok ?

Hello daily readers ^^
Still awake .
Time check : 6:09am.

awww, bored seh )': hais. not really having fun with some foe !

oh , just finished watching soccer.

Spain menang ! :}
okok. random ~ to be honest , i didnt know who to support .

Sape menang , tuh lerr aku support (: haha !

Today had no plan . Oh yea.

Im 5 months ; babyboyy !

hehe*
cute peh babyputeriy ?

oh. two more days to my scanning !

cant wait sey (:

but actually i dont feel like going.

I dont know why. err, 4 months more;

how can i managed to ?

im afraid and abit perplexed now.

hmm.

I told raikhan's cousin { saza} about babyboy .

she's happy , and she cant wait to search for a babyboy's name :}

it was unbelievable. i dont know, what to say more.

I myself , wondering seh, what to name him.

Hmm, will be searching for my baby's name soon (:

and i need someone to help me out.

Oh, kakak dayah!
i miss you seh.

sleeping with you , & cracking stupid jokes-.-

hmm. Im changing my number soon :)
cant wait seh.

hmm . beep me soon okok (:
oh yea, mameh . will meet you soon with spark & the rest .

Hoping bomb will be okok.

da ride balek peh bro ?

haha !

i miss my childhood moment seh.

zaman umor baru 11 tahun eh , nan korang !

minum , sampai tergolek - golek pat marina !

haha ! kecooh uh . okok,

Speechless . da baby nak check name babyboy~
takecare :}
nightynight .

Hello Daily Readers :}
Okok. Lets talk about yesterday night was having our outings with :
Keesha babe | andeeka | Adeqk Sanahsan | Farhan | Epin.
Was having our awesome night with some stupidity being revealed .
haha ! Especially , the part when eventually , he became a teacher . -.-''

Things was going rocky between me & raikhan .
and i felt too sick and tired with everything .
hopefully , i wish he would come to his sense.
Ohhhhh .
Yesterday , was PuteriKuching 's Birthday!
hehe *
and I had fun slacking at cineleisure , them getting drunk till one thing popped up .
had conversations between me & kimie keai , about the past & also had some conversations between silvia.
Oh . I simply , dont know what else to say .

To be frank ;
I simply dont know what to update ;
so yea.
update soon :}
takecare .

Hello Daily readers ^^ Currently accompanied by someone (': hehe. okok,

Basically , for now I couldnt make my precious time to do blogging & fb -ing .

Heees. So yea, will not be updating my blog for the meantime.

Hopefully , I will when My laptop had been repair (':

Okok ?

Anything, do text / ring me up xD

Without Further adue , Im not in singapore for now .

Im at Jb with my cousins .

Do takecare ! :D

Iloveyou & miss all of you .

Hello daily readers ^^
Baby just had my lunch . Hehe *
oh , I wanted to leave Singapore actually today but last minute cancelled as my aunty told me to bring along grandma . So Grandma, going to my aunty 's crib on Thursday . So i left with two days .
Today planned to go to Jb just to go for shopping and come back to Singapore once again with my foes'.
But i dont think , I'll be going as Im not feeling well. Oh , currently texting with NazBelo.
Out of blue , he texted me to have some conversations. Hmm, Yup . Ive lost contact with Ita so yea.
and perhaps , Yesterday , I logged in to my facebook with people flooding me.
Hais , Receiving text messages / phone calls by my foes. Oppsy !
im sorry friends. I heard Ayu cried on the phone , pleading me not to go and NiniCyner, asking me ,
Must i go ? Frankly speaking , I wish I dont have too. But i need. Its a must . Till when ?
I know, running away from problems wouldnt solve this matter between me and raikhan.
Im going there to ease my mind. Yes, I know, I would come back , and have some difficulties once again.
However, Ive made my choice , to stay calmed. He needs space, so am i . I need that too)':
Until when must I been controlled ? Until when must I stay put and being a dumb .
Silence killing me. Like seriously , but what Can i say ?
This is how it turns out to be. I need to be strong , that's his quotations for me , every single time.
He regretted being with me, He regretted to have this two years , and he regretted to make up the choice to abscond , and stay with me. I do understand his problems , but he thought I didnt .
So , I dont wish to cause trouble nimore towards him.
Yes, it hurts me deep down , Its never been a lie to me. He will feel complicated now.
But do you think , im not ?
So , Life still have to goes on . I wanna come back to the right track , eventhough the child in my tummy . Okok, until here , will i be posting ,
Do takecare ~
Bestie{s} , Thanks tau korang ! For being there . I appreciate you people.
Loves;
BabyPuteriySweets; Amira.

This post is meant for Raikhan . Yesterday post wasnt what i eventually wanted to post , cause I was in a rush and I had no linked talking about it . So yea, let me say it here . Okok .

I wanted things to be right for us both , but He felt pressurize , how about me ? He suffered being with me for two years .

He regretted to have make up this decision . He wanted me to changed , Yes . Im willing too.

But did he ever wanted ? If he really wants me to change , He should be right here, How can I change if he wasnt here ? Seeing my reactions ?
How ? And when everytime , we quarrelled he said , I wouldnt changed. I did my fucking best to change. I throw away my friends, I told him too.
Is it fair ? If you're still with your friends, and Im not ? Left only eyya & fyq ? But somehow , I still hold on to that .
Im pregnant , and my attitude sucks ! Yes, I do realized that . You know , it was so damn hard for me , I never wish to run away from the problems. Im doing this , to make him know , Yes, He need space & freedom , I'll give what he wanted . I gave him , but he neglected me.
He never even care , to picked up the phone , or even a single text messages . Have you ever ask me , whether , Have I eaten ? Have I bathe ? How's my day ? You never did . When you thought of calling me , you will ended up quarrelling still . Today , we both had a conversation through the phone , just the both of us , awhile more , or the next day , we both will be having a sweet moments just for a while . You put the blame all over me. You never trust me , did you ? I dont think so .
Oh yea , Not to forget , before I leave , this blog post , will be what Ive been going through for all this while .
First of all ; Aphiecine ? You're asking me about Aphiecine , am i right ? Okay let me tell you ;
I had nothing to do with him , Yes . I cant deny , he was my ex . But it was just my friend now to me. He was there to just takecare of me. Yes, he did came down to my crib while you're away . He was with Yayah and Inin. Yes, Shasha was chatting with me on that point of time, why I purposely on the video call ? Whereby , he was there , if i dont wish you to know. Cause , I know , she will tell you ~ Am i right ?
So let me tell you ; He never did anything or I never played behind your back . I know, I love you . So i wouldnt be that stupid . I dont wish to hurt you . I wanted to be faithful . I told shasha not to close the video call , and see whatever we did. You can asked her, or you can ask Inin & Yayah, i swear I wouldnt do any stupid stuff , why ? Because , I LOVE ONLY YOU ! and I dont wish to betrayed you behind your back .
Second : Why you didnt treasure my love towards you ? Everything i did it was all wrong towards you . Then what can i do to make you understand about me , and every each time all i did to you is just misery for your life.
Third : Im going to M'sia and stay there for more than one month , was because , I just want to ease my mind and give you what you wanted .
You wanted to have a freedom , you wanted to have your space, Yes Im giving you the space. Its not that Im going because I wish too. But im doing this , to grant your wish . How long , am i gonna stay with a broken heart like this ? Even if im here , do you care ?
You dont even Bother to give me a little space of your time , for me not even on the phone to spare a few hours talking with me , and asking me about my stuffs . Have you ever taught ? You told me , you're dissapointed in me , with What ive talked to you on the phone today ,
but then , do you know why ? You're holding on to the reasons and dont even Asked me why am i turning out to be like this.
With you seeking forgiveness , and kept repeating it , But you didnt mean it .
You told me , you wanted to spare your time at home with family , Its not that I dont understand , but you should have atleast a few hours to meet me , if you can , with your friends , going around to bedok and stuff , why just a straight bus you cant come down ?

You hurt me , you knew it but you repeated it . I kept silence , eventhough alot of people asking me to move on . I couldnt make it , cause I love you so much which breaks my heart . And you dont worry , i will take care of our child . Im doing this , because I need space too.
You need space with your friends, I need space to let go my friends , and stayed away .
I know, Ill be holding a responsibility as a mother soon . Im sorry to cause trouble for you .
I'll do my best to make this went right between us both . Insyallah .

One month , will be your enjoying moment . Takecare , I love you (':

RAIKHAN

This post right here is for him . With starting this post , i would like to seek for forgiveness. If I did gonna hurt you in this post right here.

While typing , let me tell you , i do mean what i said. I know, Since 070409. I never did ever once regretted to be with you. I never wish to leave cause I deliberately in love with you. I dont wish to say Goodbye , however you did numerous time. To me, I did make a mistakes, Who on earth doesnt do it am i right ? Yes, It hurtful . This is all the chapter in our love life.

I did my best to perform well , in this relationship but now, I was at the losing point. Now, Im LEAVING SINGAPORE. Read this clearly ,

NOT LEAVING YOU , but still , im doing this for your own good. I know, Im evading from reality but what can I say ? With us , together but You're far apart , I did do my best to face all the obstacles, But i wasnt perfect though. I was way behind. I never understand you , I never did care about what You feel. Isit that the real thingy ? The facts you've told me. I love you so much .

Somehow, I did all this , to make it the best shot for us , but you thought it was being controlled.

Every day , night , seconds , minutes , hours , I never forgotten you . It will always reminds me of you . I wasnt perfect enough for you by people judgement. You were sweet when I first met up with you , on your first homeleave . Within , that two months , You was so damn sweet. With the promises been made, but it was all gone down the drain . As far As I could say , was All i need was to be with you .

I never expect you to be there for almost 24 hours with me, but just give me a few minutes , for just one phone calls.

Or even a single text messages , will do . But it was just for a while. We quarrelled alot. Im holding on to it.

You wanted to keep the baby , i agreed. But what did you do ? Where are you , whenever i in pain ?

You said , I cared more about my friends, But did you see , how I treated them ? I did my best to throw them far away but now, I left with only two . Eyya & Fyq , All was just a past time for me. You shattered my dreams , i did once told you .

It was the facts , I cried thousands tears. I cried whenever i MISS YOU . I waited for you , for your return .

I didnt trust you when you promised me now, why ? Cause you betrayed my trust .

You're pressurized with me , am i right ? Have you ever wonder about me ? Have you ?

All you can think , was only you. You wanted me to change , im doing my best to change.

But how can you see the changes in me , I need you here so that I could prove it to you .

But you never wish to be here. You regretted , I couldnt say anything .

But deep down , im hurt )': I kept silence

How much freedom do you want from me ?

How long , would you make me suffer ? & atlast , you gonna regret ?

It pains me down , when You said , There's other girls who can be way much better than me,

It was me to be blame ,

I do understand , my fault

I couldnt elaborate much ,

all i can say is , I love you .

By leaving singapore , by the time ,

Im not enjoying , but giving you time.

A space which you took it for granted .

So yea, takecare ~

All the best , for everything.

Time check : 104am.
At Lan Gaming .

Im away from home this few days , i miss my lappy so much )': but what can i say ?

for now , im staying at tiongbahru (': Trying to stay away from home , so I wouldnt be thinking much whenever im alone .

So yea, things happen in just a few days .

If you continously , thinking of leaving me alone , and let me have the time of reflection ,

I guess, You should be having a wrong decision .

What can i say ? Cause , You 're not there.

How can you see my changes ? Thing through my dear.

I couldnt talk much anymore.

I know, Everything Im the one to be blame.

Two years , stressup with everything ,

How about me ?

Thing through .

But whatever happen next :

I'm sorry , im doing it for your own good.

I love you .

Takecare okok ? (':

Sesungguhnya aku ; Telah jatuh CINTA .
oh , indahnya bila bersama mu :D

Moga engkau dapat terima.

CINTA DENGAN IKHLASNYA.

Jangan lerr, engkau sia sia kan .

Harapan dan impian ku (':

Siaping to > Commonwealth Mrt head to TiongBahru :)

Pasar memanggil ke-esokkan hari :D

Hoping dea tak kan hampa kan aku buat kali ketiga.

Forgive me before I start this post of mine tonight )':   Ive been crying , and there's only Kakak Dayah right here by my side consoling me.
Hais, It hurts me deep down inside, when I received that phone call from you . I didnt expect that it will turn out to be in this way .
Like seriously , I was shocked. I didnt expect that You would have that Negative thinking in Your mind.
I swear , deep down , i HAD nothing to do with Your Boyfee. I thought You should know me well , That I really love only ;
Muhammad Raikhan Bin Rosli and there wouldnt be anyone else who could earn my heart.
& I really couldnt bare that things had becoming much more chaotic now.
I did my very best shot to be strong to face all the obstacles, eventhough I felt Im failing ):
I failed to be strong , I failed to be someone who can go through all this shits / sufferings eventhough it really hurt me.
Ive been shedding tears , and my heart hurts alot. To whom , it may be concern :
Love life of yours had been perfect . You have someone who really wanting to change the situation into much more better .
And change his attitude just to be with You . I know , You're hurt with his past but somehow, You should understand that He's willing to change for the better . And he really holds on to his promises | words.
& You should appreciate that . between us both , there wouldnt be any affair , and I promise you that .
cause all i ever wanted to lead now is just being with Raikhan & the child.

It was so damn pain , I felt like ending up my life soon .
I couldnt tolerate the obstacles that he had been giving me .
I did my best to stay strong , but somehow , I failed .
I know, I couldnt make it.
I was so damn heartbroken | it was just a mixture feelings for now.

Why must I be so damn hurt now ?
Why must I let my feelings overcome me ?
Why ? This is the question that Ive been wondering .
Hais, all I could do , was to shed tears.
I had enough shedding my tears . I dont wish to see myself getting hurt numerous time.
& i know my surroundings hate that so much .

I miss my friends,
I miss the moment , I have someone to be right by my side.
I miss all those stupid stuff.
Sometimes, I feel like killing myself.
i COULDNT make it through ):
I know , I couldnt.

I wish I could bleed myself & die.
I tried to think positively , that all this would end soon with a happily ending after.
But somehow, When will it end ? Ive been wondering.
Im searching from the truth in me.

I wish Papa would be here.
I know, with his presence, I'll not be in this kind of situation .
I miss Papa . I know he gonna give me a solution for everything that Im into now.
But I know, I can not always depend on him to solve my problems.
Still , i NEED him eventhough he wasnt my bloodtied.
He understand me so damn well .
I really appreciate him . Why must things happen to me ?
Why must my life turn out to be like this ?

Papa :      I wish You're here )': I need You badly . I need your help in facing all this.
Mummy :   I wish You would have a little space for me , I need someone to talk , to be there for me & listen to the problems I had.
But I know you cant, cause afterall You're busy with your work and you have to earn extra cash in order to give me my pocket Money.
Abang : I wish You could understand me , and afterall You're still my brother & no one else , I ever need now.
Ayah : You're gone ! You abandoned me alone, & never think about what I feel. You dont even bother to ask me , about whats happening to me , in my life. Hais, why ? Im your biological daughter .

                                                                  & ALL I NEED WAS ATTENTION ! )':      LIKE SERIOUSLY !
PLEASE , UNDERSTAND ME . I NEED YOU PEOPLE ): HAIS , WHY MUST YOU PEOPLE MIND YOUR OWN BUSINESS ?
OH GOD ! HELP ME ): MAKE THEM REALIZE.

Done , with my sayings .
I had enough blogging + shedding tears ):
So yea, update when Things went on right ): Takecare ~

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