♥

Dearest,

Let's talk about the two days that I've left . Yesterday as well as Sunday. Yknow, I just had my hair cut yesterday evening at Yishun[ Snip Avenue ] was being accompanied by Andee Fadly as well as Sad legong. Waaaa! I love my new haircut:) After my hair cut, I slacked around with them nearby to Andee Fadly's crib while waiting for Nurul to reach home. My battery went low, and yes, GONE! it was switch off. I read Adeqk Sanahsan's wall post, he's down with fever and I hope he will get well soon.
Reached home, just now as yesterday I wasn't at home away at Andee Fadly's crib. The moment, I reach home, I show Mummy my new haircut and She loves it. hehe *

After that, I had my showered and I didn't notice that papa's letter at the dining table. When I look at it, I was so happy and was so excited to read it. After dressing up, I left my Laptop on while I read his letter was touched with his letter. Will be replying to him, maybe tonight:) Wowww! He requested one thing, which I aimed for, and yes, I promise you papa, I would remain this way, and wouldn't get attached until the day you're released. I miss you so much )': Meet soon, for another visit.

In 3 days time, I can't wait will be off to Batam to welfare house with the rest of Papa's friends without my family tagging along. And, yes. Thought of asking Eyya Seraphiel to tag along but I know, that wouldn't happen. So, yea. I didn't ask her about it. I hope, She's doing well at home. Anything, beep me up sweets:) I love you so much, So do I missing you.

Let's talk about Sunday, Sunday I went out to Andee Fadly's crib to meet him and Nurul and slacked for awhile. Heard that Uncle bai was unwell and thought of paying a visit but they wanted to go out and asked me whether, I would like to tag along, Ofcourse I would:) So, I hop in to the Lorry and inside the Lorry, I was playing with my Laptop, watching Movies while waiting to reach our destination which is at Tampines, don't know whose house is that, I just follow. Afterall, we headed to the nearby Coffee Shop and had my late dinner with them and we headed off to Yishun once again to send Uncle Wak home as well as Uncle Bai, and the last destination was mine. Reach home, I went online and Zaly wanted to meet up for a drink, I tag along but I'm not drinking.

Afterall, Zaly overnight at my crib. He's sleeping at the living room and the next morning which is yesterday, We had our breakfast together and yes, done.

So, yea. Will be updating my blog post soon:) I can't wait 3 more days to go.

Takecare, Sweetloves♥

Dearest,

I'm not in a mood to post about yesterday routine. Thus, now what i eventually wish to post about was to Someone who was disappointed, heartbroken and couldn't help herself but wait.

Thou, the truth, I know it simply hard for her to accept this but She have too.

Things happen for a reason, and you should know, in relationship there's always up and down.

Eventhough, you're not with him now but still you're close with him and lately, He posted for you something at your blogspot which really kills you deep down.

Syg, be strong. maybe, He's not meant for you now, but you will never know in future.

Maybe, you deserve someone better than him. No one stopping you from waiting, love.

Yes, I've been through your state now, whatever It is, Just stay calm and don't rush.

Don't forget, you're daily meals and don't sleep late everynight. It's not good for your health.

I used to be like you, now, What happen to me?

I'm down with fever sometimes.

I'm sorry, for not coming back to your crib these days cause I also have my own family to take good care as well as my own enjoyment.

I really hope you understand.

I'll be leaving Singapore soon, in 5 days time.

Gonna miss you):

Gonna miss my Laptop.

Gonna miss chatting with you and the rest

Gonna miss my room again,

What's the most thing in my life that i gonna miss was Mummy ):

So, yea. Takecare sweets.

Iloveyousomuch.

Now, i'm back posting on my own post.
Awhile, I posted at ♥Adeqk Sanahsan blogpost as well as changed his blogskins.
So, the clock almost strikes 10am and I'm still awake.

This post would be a short and simple post ;

I MISS ♥ADEQKSANAHSAN

That's the reason why, I post:)
Meet soon love,
Take care.

Morning Sweetloves♥

hello daily Readers ,

im AdeqkSanAhSan , im updating on behalf of CintaBabyputeriy [my beloved ex gf ]

kehh here you go in early morning updating for her at 8.09am on 27 november 2010 ~

i'll call her myra instead of bbyputeriy kays , so its easier for me ...

thanks ~

Actually , i can't denied that i miss her ~

i swear to God !!

among all my ex , she knowns my feelings and hearts well but sometimes she don't know how to look after it ..

im FRAGILE ~ hahakz !! i think soo ~

hahakz ~

i have nothing much to say actually ..

but i wanna wish her , All the best in life , although im not beside u animore , but u'r always in my mind ~

my tears drop down , when we contacted back thru fb or phone ..

i can't remember arh .

what happen in the past is past ...

all those pass i erased it ..

i can only recalled back the happiest time we r together ...

YESS~~

we r sweet couple , but something when wrong , so faith is not there ,...

i thing we r not strong enough lorhh ~

kehhlarhh ~

till here i update her blog ...

no matter what , BE STRONG IN LIFE ~

im sure you can BABY ~

~~AHDEQKSANAHSAN !!!!

Sunset, Midnight rise

Maybe you and I can't describe how she sleep but there was once I caught a moment where she was deep asleep.

I just can't take my eye off of those Fishballs.

One thing that keep me wondering is what is going on behind those eye?

Well, I think I maybe may found the answer.

This post is meant for ♥ Eyya Serraphiel Daneesya as well as her love partner. In this picture, It maybe seen as though she's happily enjoying herself but let me clarify everything as I seen everything and accompanied her day and night. She was too heartbroken and She admitted her wrong-doings and doing her best to prove to you that She wanted to change for the better and waiting for you patiently and sincerely with her open arms if you're about to come back to her. All she ever wanted was you to be with her and start a new leaf in both of your relationship. I don't wish to see her hurt this way. She shattered everything but she never wish to do that.

You may thought that She's pretending but the truth, She never forget you when you're not around with her. She misses you so much and wishing for your embrace once again. It was totally a big disappointment and She felt her world was so misery without you. Why can't you just see the facts and stop denying that You really can't live without her. I believed things happen for a reason, She did her best shot. Breaking down almost everyday and forget to eat her meals daily.

You may be hurt and you may thought she don't even care and bother to ask your whereabouts, Yes, she don't know how to show it to you but She's trying. Looking at her appearance and the way she turn out was sucha deceiving. Eventhough, She crave herself a smile but she's doing that in order to hide all those tears which is about to roll down her cheeks. She deliberately in love with you, She's willing to do everything for you, Are you blind ? Can't you just see what she went through ? Never take her for granted, you're killing her. Seriously, Stop treating her this way.

All i ever wanted is for you to accept her for who she is and appreciate her. I don't mind if you both would be getting back as one, cause I' m sure supporting the both of you, still.

Reflect, think what's the best for you and don't regret cause if it's done, it couldn't be undone.

I'm done now, and I hope you can think about it wisely. Takecare ♥

It's 6:45pm and I'm doing nothing much. Yesterday, I thought of updating my blog but I was too tired and I fall asleep, while waiting for yesterday pictures to transfer into my Lappy. Yesterday afternoon might be enjoying my day but it ended up cock si cup at the ending part. At first, we had no plans and I planned to meet up with ♥Uncle Ijat and went for karaoke at Grandlink. Planned to meet up at 1230pm but i and precious babygirl; ♥Eyya Seraphiel Daneesya we're late. So, We reached there at 130pm and We headed to Grandlink. Once reach, we planned to sing for only 3-4hours and our room was 25. As usual, we choose all the songs that was meaningful and so is ♥Eyya Seraphiel Daneesya. She was abit shocked to received a phone calls from Afiq's mum. It was so unbelievable. She felt so stressup and worried, I tried to cool her down. She sang all the songs which is so meaningful for herself and I know, She had been thinking about Afiq and I can see that she's controlling her tears from rolling down her cheeks still, It's too bad, She let it flow. Her mind wasn't really focusing on enjoying but Afiq.

Cut that, I called up ♥Andee Fadly to come down at Grandlink when I remember that he have this one wish and I want to grant it which is singing with him " MY HEART " . He reached at 330pm and I was waiting patiently for him inside the room. ♥Uncle Ijat thought of extending and Yes, we did.
We sang until 940pm. In between those time, I went up and thought of smoking with ♥Uncle Ijat as well as ♥Andee Fadly. Never did I thought of bumping into ♥Mama &♥Daddy [ which is ♥Adeqk Sanahsan's parents.] I tried to hide my tears and I ran towards her. I hugged her tightly, I miss her so much and we had some conversations with eachother as well as ♥Cik Ida. Also bumped into Remy, Zick-O, Wan Hansley. Waaaaaaaa! Had a few conversations and I just leave them behind.

I went down and I sang with ♥Andee Fadly " MY HEART " and ♥Eyya Seraphiel Daneesya was too tired and she had her short nap and I just let her be. At around, 930pm, we went out from the room and we head home before leaving, not to forget that i did had a few talks with ♥Mama & ♥Daddy.
Hug&Kisses and off I went home. So, we took Circle line and head back to ♥Eyya Seraphiel Daneesya's crib and I've fallen asleep and woke up at 3am without ciggs and I just be patience. Saw, ♥Eyya Seraphiel Daneesya asleep and I just ignored cause I understand, She wants to sleep so do i but I had mine. So, i ring up ♥Andee fadly and he went online, chatting with me:)
Afterall, we planned to meet up at ♥Eyya Seraphiel Daneesya's area as he's passing me my pants and he did came by at 1130am and we slacked until 630pm. And now, I'm still rotting at ♥Eyya Seraphiel Daneesya's crib while she's off to buy herself a tongue stud.

I'm too tired and thought of heading to bed, but my thoughts is to wait for ♥Eyya Seraphiel Daneesya and had her piercing done first and off I go back homey:)

& Now, I had nothing much to update. Will update soon.

Thanks for viewing, Sweetloves♥

Takecare:)

Boredom strikes me now and I guess, I shall update my blog instead. Finished chatted with two of my MSN friends, and they're off to bed while I'm here doing nothing much and not feeling sleepy at all. I guess, I'm an owl. During nights, I will stay awake but will off to bed during afternoon. What's happening to my sleeping hours these few months, I know I have to stop all these but i'm not used to it anymore.
I know, I've to changed my lifestyle. My daily routine totally changed. Like I've said, Things happen and I can't get rid of it. It kept bothering my mind. Maybe, I'm too egoistic. I was so self-centered that I never ever thought of others feelings as well as what they ever wanted from me. Though, I know, deep down Mummy wanted me to eventually be strong and stay calm eventhough, She actually still am disappointed in me about my past. No one seems to understand besides ♥Eyya Seraphiel. I went through to much and sometimes, I felt like giving up but I know, I must not as It had been written up there, about my life and yes, I've to decide my paths but I pick the wrong one.

Now, I'm doing my best to show the rest that, I'm also doing my best to change for the better in life as well as in person. Yknow, today I felt heartache but I kept it to myself but I felt uneasy and I wanted to let it out, so I share it here. I don't really wish to share it with ♥Eyya Seraphiel cause I don't wish to add on more to her burden. I know, I don't have to think but how? It keep on flashing back every single thing.I miss mummy, i'm away from home for almost two weeks but It's okay. I'll ring her up these afternoon and ask her well beings. Hoping, she's alright there^^, And, I'm glad to say that, Thanks Mummy for appreciating me at some parts though, Sometimes, I'm abit naughty. I'm still childish eventhough, I'm Seventeen. She tolerates alot of my nonsense.

Actually, I felt like sharing what i feel. I don't know. I'm trying to be strong, to calm and take things slow eventhough sometimes, I felt I should give up. Yes, I did give up still, there wouldn't be any changes in my life. And now, I've the thought of leaving Singapore, but it's not the best choice.
I'm running away from reality. Even how far, I'm running still my mind will bother me, and his image would be there too. So, what's the point ? It's useless.

People keep on asking why I'm smilling, Yes, I can look like an insane girl but I have to crave a smile in order to hide my tears from rolling down my cheeks. I have to be strong. I have to accept it.
It's all reality. No matter what, Life still have to move on. I don't know how my battle of life/lovelife will be going on. I'm following what my heart says, but then, what if my heart shattered into pieces, what else for me to listen ? haishh ): I'm too perplexed.

I felt all this was my worst nightmare in my life. Seriously, It's hurting and killing me deep down.
When, I read Ririehy's blog, Yes. I understand how she feels and I can feel her but I can't force him either. Just have to see what's the outcome. I've to just mind my own bussiness.

Insyallah; everything would be fine in life . Amin ♥

Okay, I've ended my blogpost and I'll shall watch Cinta Kirana now.

So yea, Thanks for viewing daily sweetloves♥

Takecare' Mornights♥

Love begins with a smile, grows with a kiss, and ends with a teardrop.

it's 3:42am and i'm still awake. My mind being bothered with one of this thing which I know, I had no rights to get involved but when I already get involved with it, Now I realize that i actually learnt something new and I should keep it an experience in life. I really pity my ex ; ♥AdeqkSanahsan as well as someone who was his past. I don't wish to reveal about her negatives here.

My intention, I swear, I'm trying to make it right for them and I know, How it feels like for that sweet lady but what can I say, I can only advice and shared my thoughts with her.
Since, then She keep protesting about it and I really can't force her to do anything.
Like, I've told her, Things happen for a reason and make it an experience in her life and shall not repeat it again. Afterall, If she really loves him, then, Stay strong and calm. Convince him.
Not to hurt him, anymore.
Think before making decisions next time. No point, she regret now cause all that is done, cannot be undone. What I can say is, Be strong and cool down.
Take things slow.

And let me end about them and talk about myself.
Yesterday I slept at 3pm and I woke up at 1030pm much more earlier than ♥Eyya Seraphiel. hehe^^
Had an awesome sleeping beauty.
Afterall, went online and chatted with a few friends and off to bathroom and had my showered.
Get ready headed to Roti Prata's house and buy food, ciggs as well as to transfer money to someone.

Afterall, went back home and continue chatting. Doing nothing. I had no appetite to eat now):
I don't know, what's wrong with me. Haishh ):
I don't want to make things bothering me.
I had my own life to lead.
Whatever it is, I'm a little bit stronger as I'm much more closer to ♥Eyya Seraphiel.
I wouldn't be that down whenever she's by my side. She even make me become much more stronger. Having heartache, disappointment, but never grudges.
Whatever, I'm doing is sincerely from the bottom of my heart.

i really hope things would be alright.
Insyallah; Amin♥
okay, I'm still fresh awake doing nothing much.

Anyway to iee2 : Stop spamming kays ? I really am lazy:)
seriously. I'm sick and tired. Thankyou. Hate me, click the [x] button and you're much welcome to leave my blog aites. Takecare^^,

Okay, I'm done updating my blogpost.
Sweetloves, thanks for viewing.
Much Appreciated.
Takecare, Nights; Sweetdreams♥

It is 7:20am and I'm still awake same goes to ♥Eyya Seraphiel. We've been staring at our individuals laptop and been watching Cinta Kirana. I recommended her to watch it and yes, I know she will know now, why I'm too addicted watching this movie. Precisely, It was so sweet and really touched my heart. How, I really wish that, I could found someone like "Galang". Hope so, Insyallah; One day. -♥Amin, moga termakbul permintaan ku.

We both can't sleep as yesterday we had our afternoon nap whereby actually we planned to karaoke instead we hit the bed. Too tired, as I didn't sleep for the whole night the day before and i'm down with fever and having a nose block which was sucha irritating thing ever in my entire life.
Hoping, that I will get well soon. Maybe, should sleep each and every night starting from today.
I can't go on this way any longer or I will be worsen that this.

Okay, before this post was an inappropriate blogpost so, I'm making this the proper one. I thought of reply-ing all the taggers too:) Anyway, before I forget, I got to share something to one of my -♥AdeqkSanahsan; Muhammad Raikhan.

" I believe that everything happens for a reason. People change so that you can learn to let go. Things go wrong so that you appreciate them when they're right. You believe lies so you eventually learn to trust no one but yourself, and sometimes good things fall apart so better things can fall together. I self destruct every relationship so that i don't get hurt but in truth i just hurt myself worse in the long run. "

I really went through a hard-time without him, cause deep down, it's killing me. We chatted and I felt relieved when I shared to him what's my inner feelings apparently, I shall say, I discovered something which is making me turn into a question mark.

And, I wanted to share something to my biological father -
♥Amir Moani

Although, we're far apart, still you're always in my mind. I used to hold on grudges with you but it was my biggest mistakes ever. I shouldn't have listen to anyone, I should have find out myself.
Whatever, you shared with me, all I can say is i'll promise to keep it by myself and I really miss the times when I was being pampered by you. I miss the way you embrace me.
We'll meet soon aites ? :)
Once, you've reach Singapore.

And, not to forget to share about my biological Mummy -
♥ Salbiyah Sinin

The heart of a mother is a deep abyss at the bottom of which you will always find forgiveness.
I've put her through alot of shits and burdens, I'm sorry love.
I'll promise to be a good daughter in future, sweets:')
You're the best ever I had. No one can replace you.

Okay, now I'm done with it:)
and replying taggers now.

Nisha Marzuki- Hey babe! I'll link you soon ! :)
Ridzky- Yes! You've tagged me:) Thanks for viewing aites?:) Come again, soon^^
Anonymous- haha! Really meh? Thanks aites:) Err, why don't you just tag your name at my tagboard? Do view again aites:)
BabySachi- Ouhhs, thankyou'thankyou^^ View again tau babe! :)
adeqksanahsan- Ouhhs, thankyou'thankyou^^ View again aites? :) I got a new post for you anyway. Take good care of yourself ♥
Chaeyoung- Ouhhs, thankyou for viewing:) Much appreciated♥
Your EX- wuhuu^^ * wondering* Actually who are you? Why you didn't tag me your name ? Atleast, I know who you are aites:) Next time, just tag. No harm right ?:)
♥EyyaSeraphiel - Ouhhs, thanks sweetheart. You had been adding on to the comments:) anyway, Iloveyousomuch♥
Feeza♥ - Ouhhs, ingat'ingat:) I daa tag you tadi pat your tagboard. Link me aites ?:)
Imissyousomuchtoo! Meet soon sweets, :) Thanks tau ^^ You also lawa sungguh ! hehe*

Okay, now I'm done everything would be ending my blogpost for today.
Good Morning everybody♥
And, thanks for visiting my blog.
Do tag me, before leaving.
Takecare. Much appreciated Sweetloves♥

time check in : 5.21am and I'm still awake :) Still at Eyya Seraphiel's crib. Overnight here for a few days. I didn't have much things to share here as I was asleep until 10+pm just now. Just now, I had some conversation at MSN with this guy above which is my Ex; AdeqkSanahsan. We chatted alot and I really felt relieved about it.

Ouhh, boy ! Doesn't mean that we've broke up, we can't be friends, yett I felt easy and comfortable still with you. Anyway, I wish you all the best in life and I really hope you would be finding someone new who can accept you for who you are and settle down with you, like I've explained to you about mine. You see, I'm doing fine :) You don't worry.

Yes, misses with all the moments we used to have with each other, with the hugges&kisses but I know, it wouldn't turn it all back once again like how we used too. All, I can say, you'll never be forgotten by me, cause I keep on forgetting to forget about you:')

As for now, I had nothing much to update. Sleeptight, sweetdreams aites :D

I'm at ♥ Eyya seraphiel 's crib now. Just woke up from my sleeping beauty. Time check in :10.50pm.
I would be staying over her crib for a few days. I'm busy looking for a new job. For sure, I'm gonna commit with working life now. Most probably, wouldn't be much into Malay dance anymore, cause the schedule on and off. It seems hard. haishh.

So, i guess, Money is important now. I can't live without it. It seems to be hard these days from me to get my pocket money from Mummy. Actually there's nothing much that I want to update for today.
Would be updating my blogpost soon.

Takecare, night sweetloves♥

heading to Eyya Seraphiel's crib for Karaoke today and would be staying over night for a few days :D

will be getting ready at 8am later,

I miss you.

I'm still awake since yesterday and now, it's 126pm. I came across this song and I really feel that the song was so meaningful. So, is it saying that I had found my true love once?
Yes, I think. So, AdeqkSanahsan is the one.
Neh, only god knows.
Time will tell everything. Soon'soon :)

There will be a long way to go. Maybe, this is what I have to go through first.
Let's see how my story life would turn out to be.

Ouhhs, yea. Enjoy listening to this video above ^^

Update soon aites ?
Will be heading to Eyya Seraphiel's crib later.
& now, I'm waiting for my sweet cousin; Keyla.

Updating again, just to past time :)
I guess, By songs, will express my true feelings.
Thou, how much you hurt me and feel like killing me,
you made me went insane and I'm loving you unconditionally.
My dearest ; Ex - ♥ Muhammad Raikhan Bin Rosli/ AdeqkSanahsan.

And I know, this is what -♥Andee Fadly feels.
Yes, I get it. I know, what you feel.
but, I'm still being egoistic.
I don't know, too many mixture feelings.

This song is for my Ex ; -♥ShahEdfie/ Aphiecine.
I know, How you feel but I want you to know what I feel.
I really can't accept you back into my life eventhough, Yes, that someone had left me.
We shall be close friends instead aites ? :)
I hope you understand.

This song is for ; -♥ Epul Carl Tsm
He was always there for me whenever I'm down and he always make me smile and laugh.
He accompanied me every night, eventhough sometimes, he's too tired.
I know, It's my fault but you just can't forgive me cause I really disappoint you.

Someone who was always there for me to wipe me tears off and be there for me whenever I'm in doubt. We both love this song and we dedicated to eachother;
Now, his away and i know, there will be no more chapters between us.
I miss you so much , -♥ IninApek'Boyan

& It's the end of expressing my thoughts and feelings.
So yea, I'll try to stay strong :D
Things happen for a reason and I have to accept it cause It's REALITY.

Update soon, sweetloves♥

Its 7:49am and Im still awake. Currently chatting with my two babygirls ; ♥ Eyya Seraphiel Daneesya as well as ♥ Nanii Meowmeow. Aww, damn missing ♥ Nanii Meowmeow. Babe, meet soon aites ? :D
Whenever you're free, for now, I know you're busy with Tajul so yea, wouldn't be meeting you that often like how we used to meet up with eachother )': Nehmind, maybe soon'soon aites ? Imissyousofuckingmuchsweets.

Suddenly, this morning I started to miss one of my ex; ♥Adeqk Sanahsan. Why?
I'm not holding on, maybe from the point of view, people thought I might but i just don't know.
It really makes me feel so damn perplexed. Still, I'm moving on without any guys with me.
He's happy moving on and I'm happy to see that :D
Wishing you all the best in life aites ?
I hope everything would be going on smoothly for you.
Insyallah; Amin ♥

Maybe, I'm making things hard for me. Yes, it's true but how can I just move on ? After all the times i've did sacrifised for you, I shall say that you're blind and same goes to me.
What can i say ? Love is blind. It's true and I really believed in that.
Even how many times, you hurt me and I felt like you're killing me inside, still, I'm standing strong to fight for you, but you didn't. So what's the point ?
Everything ends. No more chapter for us.

-♥Ya allah, beri kan aku kekuatan untuk aku merempuhi segala dugaan dan cabaran yang kau berikan kepada aku . Aku seperti menimpa tangga.
Perlu ke , untuk aku menerima ini semua ?
Aku jugak ingin kebahagiaan, ketenangan dalam hidup.
Setiap kali, bermaciam'maciam masalah yang ditimpa oleh diri aku ini.
Aku tak dapat bertahan lagi,
Aku lemah. Berikan aku petunjuk-mu.

I guess, it's the end of me updating my blogpost.
So yea, Update soon^^
Morning sweetloves♥
Takecare,

its: 3:30am and I'm not asleep yet. I wish I would be in bed now eventhough I've tried to close my eyes but it seems to be hard. Too many things happening to me. Must I suffer again? How long will this continue on? I'm hurt)': Totally hurt. Too many mixture feelings. I am too egoistic, Yes, I am. I couldn't make it through. It seems hard for me. How long? Haish )': I know, i may update my blog about what i feel but not my inner feelings. I really couldn't stand it.

I received a phone call in the morning, which really makes me feel so guilty. I really hurt him and made him went insane. I never wish to hurt him, but I'm too perplexed. Seriously, I didn't mean to hurt you.
I know, you would be reading my blogpost each and every single day so that you wouldn't miss out anything about me. Yes, I knew it. Yes, maybe you're sincere towards me, You willingly accept me for who I am, but I was too egoistic just because of one small mistake you made. Which is your words. I know, you didn't mean it. I know that very well. You're envy and you can't control yourself but I'm avoiding you. I'm sorry. I didn't hold on to my promises. I'm sorry )':

I have to made this way. Sometimes, I blamed AdeqkSanahsan for everything, but I know, I can't blame him cause it meant to be this way and I have to accept the facts. I thought, I'm not gonna suffer when after our brokeup instead the other way round )': I had too much. I can't stand it more.
He really locked my heart and Yes, I still dream of him when I'm having my sweetdreams. I don't want to deny but I don't love him anymore. Maybe, As friend, Yes, I do but I didn't have any thoughts of getting back with him as he's moving on with his life. He succeed. Why, I can't ? Maybe, I'm used to deliberately in love with him and had gone through much which makes me paranoid. I think. Haish)':

I'm losing my patience actually. I don't feel like enduring anymore. I can't help it, anymore.
Just give me some guidance, Mum. I can't stand it anymore. Sometimes, I fall but sometimes, I'm just fine with it.

To Someone; I know you know who you are :')

I'm sorry for hurting you. I know, i shouldn't have be close to you. Yes, It's my fault. I've made a mistake but i can't regret it. At first, i was so damn comfortable being friends with you. You were always there went I'm going through a hard time but I can't treat you more than a friend. Yes, I know, you're sincere to accept me in your life thou, you know everything about me. You acted as if, you're deaf whenever people surrounding you talking about me. You went insane all because of me. You feel the pressurize and I was to be blame. I'm sorry )': I guess, It's true, I'm being too egoistic. Forgive me. It's my fault, you can blame me. I just don't know, what should i do now.

Whatever is it, I hope you take good care of yourself. You deserve better :) Forget about me. i'm sorry.

It's the end of us. There wouldn't be any chapter anymore. I don't want to hurt you continously.

i'm done updating sweetloves♥

Nights.

Its 1:21am and I'm awake. For now, I wanted to update something, which really brought a big impact to me since I was young. I chatted with my own biological father and I really break down after that.
I don't wish to blame both, Mummy or even Ayah about this. I know, I've chosen this path and I lead the way but I take all these as an experience in my life because for me no point regretting it now. It happens for a reason. I just have to endure it.

Flashbacks.

I really miss all those times when I was young. How, I can turn back the time. I really hope, Ayah will endure this. Now, I really know his inner feelings but what can I say ? I felt lonely, Yes. I wish to have my biological family together but no point ): Both of you move on. So, I can't say anything.

I'm sorry that I and Abai didn't chose the right path. We felt abandoned. This is how, we lead our life. Yes, people may say that we're so fucking dumb but no one knows, how it feels. The inner feelings.
Whatever it is, I'll just have to accept the fact and just endure it.

end of updating :D

Night,Sweetloves ♥

Everywhere you turn you can see her, She a White-Bright-Smiling-Girl

Maybe my words ain't going to make it good enough but others do :)

It's 9:23pm and I'm doing nothing much today. Hmms. I've been rotting myself at homey today. Was too tired today. Yesterday night was too all out. Went out with Eyya Seraphiel, Fiqoh Sanorita as well as Muhammad Wai. Was so damn fun. We went karaoke and head to Marine Parade to play pool.
Like usual, I was the first one to arrived there-_-
Was abit pissed off with my precious babygirl; EyyaSeraphiel at first, cause she's late but It's okay.
I bumped into Kakak Bibah and her sister and we had some conversation followed by Aisha , Andee Fadly, Tom and last but not least, I bumped into Steven[ club friend ]. Waaaa! He's becoming much more handsome. lol.
Okay, drop the topic.

Then, the fun part at karaoke was I sang with Muhammad Wai; the song " Mainan cinta " . They were make me laugh out loud seii. I swear, I couldn't control myself. And,and yesterday I thought I lost my phone, check'check inside one of this corner. I've to dig inside.
Okay, then after that we had our smoke break at 3:20am and we headed to Marine Parade play pool and wowww ! 3 shots in one time :) Tak pakai pe baby ?
hehe * Atlast, Eyya Seraphiel know how to play.
haha! Thanks to Fiqoh Sanorita to teach her :)

After that, they head homey .

Okay, Now. I'm done about yesterday.

For today, I woke up at 7:04pm and straight away, Grandpa told me to accompany him to Tiongbahru Plaza and Yes, I agree. Then, we head there to update his bank book as well as withdraw money and we off to NTUC to buy Instant Coffee and bread. We headed to Block 101 to buy something and head back home :)

And, now, I'm here updating my blog.
Will be sleeping soon, I guess.
Too tired :)

Takecare, Sweetloves.
Sweetdreams :D

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