Happy New Year 2011. 

Damn, I swear I can't wait for tomorrow countdown. Will be meeting my bestfriend ; Farah at Boots and Shoes at 2pm and we're off to Esplanade & meet the rest. Most probably, I'm gonna laugh into tears. I swear, cause i'll be meeting my Laughing machine. I can't wait seh * Jumping high *

Okay, Currently I'm webcaming with Shasha Kecyk. Awww, She's cute and I'm getting along well with her. 

She's one in a million among all my brother ex. I swear :] Shall meet up soon, real soon babe.

Something missing in me, How I wish if he would be with me this year. I really hope so. Haish ):

But, I know it will never happen. Just hoping for the best okay ? :D

Okay, I'm done updating. Shall update soon aites :) 

Takecare, Sweetloves.

Shall update real soon ^^, 

Takecare Sweetloves ♥

Eyya Seraphiel ♥

Okay, I'm here to reply back her blog post that she had posted a few minutes ago. I shall say that No matter what happen, I'll always love you like how I always do. No one can change that only me. We went through ups and downs together. Too many things we shared together. You saw how badly I broke down, facing truck loads of problems and You're my strength. Now, You said, I'm the one who held you up when You're falling down. That's how our relationship should be. I don't wish to say any goodbyes to you. Once is enough and I really hope you'll forget about that incident. However, Babe, I'm the one who should be greatful towards you, cause you'll always there to listen and lend me a shoulder to lean on when I'm down. 

You're so sweet, Sweetloves ♥. Don't worry, I love you so much and No matter what happen,
I still love you. Yes, It's true I found my happiness now but that doesn't mean that I'll be leaving you.

Flashback, It's true. When You're happy, I'm the one falling down and you held me up and When I'm happy you're the one whose falling down now. It's okay. Take things slow, don't give up. I believed and have faith for both of you. Stay strong & calm. Everything would turn out smoothly, don't worry loves. 

This time round is your ups and downs that You've to face in life. You know very well that, I don't mind you texting me whenever You're down or it's better to give me a phone calls. I'll do my best to be a good listener to you babe :) Cheer up aites love ♥ 

` Sometimes, the things we ever wanted the most in our life, We'll never be easy to handle it. So, stay strong. You want something, don't give up even though You fall. No matter how hard, how many times you fall try to 

stand up your own feet and get going. I believed, you can. I know, You're a strong lady. 

Crying will never solve or give you any solution for your problems. 

Think and find a way to get out and achieve what You want. 

Okay, I shall say I'll be ending my blog-post now. My eyes can't help it anymore. I'm too tired & Sleepy. 

Tomorrow will be meeting ♥ Farah Sayang. So yea, Takecare. Nights, Sweetloves ♥

Believe it or not, I'm awake at this hour 9:21am. Actually, I'm half-asleep to tired. Should be I'm having flu soon. 

Damn shit. Yesterday I slept at 5am while texting with ♥ Eyya Seraphiel. Awhile more, I'll be cleaning up the house and off to bed. I haven't had my breakfast but I ate chicken a few minutes ago and I did puff. Like usual. 

It's damn cool with the fans on. I was waiting for Bella to collect the stuffs. 

Today, my plan would be meeting up ♥ Eyya Seraphiel. I guess, Shall wait for her text messages once she's awake. Afterall, I surely would be meeting her up. Tomorrow, Would be meeting ♥ Farah tomorrow.

Her off day , wohooooooo♥ It's the end of Monday for 2010.

I can't wait for COUNTDOWN, I'm having two plans but I'm not really sure what's I'm up too.

Which one should I go for. ♥ Farah and Burah really want me to tag along with them. Then, It should be  I'm with  ♥ Farah, her second brother & Girlfee along with Burah. -♥A'an also tagging along with me. I don't think, I'll be going to Kakak Natra's birthday pit at East Coast Park cause I don't want to drink anymore.

Shall see, how things goes on between us :] Anyway, I'm feeling happy each and every day ♥

Shall update real soon , 

Takecare, Sweetloves ♥

Afterall, I went to the Ladies and we're off to City Hall to meet up with ♥Adequdut and Last minute we both meet up at Colours by the bay. Afterall, Slack for a few minutes and I had corn cup for myself and we head back home after that cause they'll be drinking and I'm outta from that :]

Afterall, I and -♥A'an train back to Woodlands and he send me back home. Now, It's almost 1am and I'm still with him. Shall jump overjoy that He's accompanying for tonight BUT , Surprisingly, Mummy left the both of us. It's okay, I'll takecare of myself. 

& I shall update soon,
Takecare,
Nights, Sweetloves ♥

I shouldn't have reacted that way, he thought I never knew his birthday.

How can I forget every single year of 27th December.

His my one & only beloved Abang angkat who was there when I'm down and go through all my obstacles.

He's there to listen to all my sorrows. 

He gave me the hope, the courage and advises. 

He was one in a million.

I'll never let anyone break his heart.

We're too close that I'm afraid of losing him.

He meant so much in my life.

& i swear, no body can compare to him.

Though, We're not the same blood but we acted like one.

You're all i ever wanted in life.

Thanks for taking good care of me since I was twelve until I'm Seven'teen this year.

I love you so much & I miss you so much .

Once again, Happy birthday , ABANG- TERSAYANG ♥ 

You'll never be replace by anyone.

Daily readers, 

Today was my awesome day. I had fun with Mummy but without Abai tagging along with us. He's now back in camp. How I wish we would have early dinner once again for the three of us. Afterall, Let's talk about today.

I woke up at around 3pm and I'm a little bit sleepy and I don't feel like going out but NO, I have too.

It's unfair to Mummy as She told me the day before that She wanted to bring me out. So yes, I woke up and check my phone and received messages from -♥ A'an. Afterall, I texted him and I get ready. 

Like usual, Mummy was the one who gets ready before I do. So, While she's waiting for me, She's watching TV and I'm getting ready. At around 530pm, I'm off from home and we head to Causeway Point for our early dinner. I had Grilled Lamb Chop for myself and Mee kway teow for herself but She didn't finish her food so I did for her. Afterall, We both plan to watch movie. At first, I'm too perplexed as I don't know what movie I wanted to choose afterall, I bumped into Atiqah and Fahmy and afterall, She recommended me to watch "Yogi Bear ". I did and that was the first time ever that I saw Mummy laughing out loud. Oh, damn! We both had fun.

After watching movie, I went down to have smoke break while Mummy eat again-.- Afterall, we head home taking 903. While in the bus, I was talking with Mummy and -♥A'an called me and we talked until I reach home & I'm here now, Updating while checking notifications. 

& I have nothing much now to update.

Shall update soon.

Takecare, Sweetloves♥

From the moment I started chatting with you, I note something about you. You have a lot of things in your mind and especially something is hang inside your heart. You feel lost and don't know what to do and where to go but one thing that you make me amazed about you. Is your strong heart! You are full with pain and sadness but you won't let it kill you no matter how painful or how hard it gets. You have far to go and make use of the opportunities you have. I know you can get far, I have faith in you :)

"The future belongs to those who believe in the beauty of their dreams"

I bumped into this one tall guy without knowing his name and I didn't managed to come forward to him to start any conversation but keep on throwing smiles and eye contact with each other. You're so cute, tall and You're just one typical Matrep with Girlfriend[s] all surrounding you. Each weekends, I'll bumped into you and never did I ever had any conversation with you until the day when You're facing difficulties to look for just one Minahrep girl who find trouble with one of you're Minahreps. I was there and I know where she is. Telling you every details and helped you out and just leave after settling all the conflicts that both of them are facing.

And we keep bumping into each other and keep having eye contacts and throwing smiles to each other. Until one day, You was so brave enough to come forward to me and asked my number. You're a stranger to me. I never had the thoughts in my mind will be exchanging my phone numbers with you. With you, pestering me, I gave you a chance to get closer to me each day. We started contacting each other and we went dating. Which was unbelievable. The first time ever, I went out with you and we shared different sorts of stories. We catch movies and I'm shivering. It's too damn cold and You hug me and we both had eye contacts with each other. Afterall, we went separate ways. We left and we still contacted with each other. 

One day, You told me that You've fallen for me but I never notice that You're still in love with your dearest ex as well as you're just using me to just become your past-time. As days goes by, You're reactions told me that. 

I never knew that's gonna be truth but my instincts was right. One month and You left me abandoned alone in a misery road. All i ever need was to have you loving me sincerely but you walk away. 

It's hard for me to let you go but I did cause I believed this quote sayings. " If, you're meant for him, you both will come back as one ". Kept waiting but you aint coming back so I left. I took a step forward and I'm attached to someone but I was wrong to used someone else to move on. I live no choice but just stay and learnt to love him, I managed to do it but You came back. We're close and we get even closer. I never thought that would happen after for so long. We both love each other , still but never did we confess to each other until You really went away from my life again.

You're always in my mind whenever you're far from me. You're image is playing around. I can't stand it anymore. I tried to move on, letting you go. Waiting for you in the future, but with no avail. 

One year left and you came back into my life, I met you once again in Facebook. 

Everything starts at this moment. The word , Me and you once again occur. I tried not to fall in love with you once again but I can't help it. Afterall, We get back once again after so many obstacles we went through. 

Remembering the part, When I faced the judge for you and wishing you'll be alright when you're away. 

It's always too late when we came back together. Each night, I'll break down thinking of you, Wishing your presence right beside me but I know, i can't do that. Too sincere falling in love with you. When you're having your operation, I waited for you the whole night until you're well. 

I can't leave you not even a seconds. I never wish you to repay any thing that i've done for you. All I ever wanted you'll learnt how to appreciate things but You don't. I never forget you when I'm out going shopping. 

I brought you things and until now, I'm happy to see you wearing those things that I've brought for you.

I'm pregnant, without my knowledge but You wouldn't believed me. You thought, I was lying but the truth is positive. It really pains me down that you don't trust me at all. Too many things happen. One after another, too many stories happen. You wanted to walk away but you stay because of your child. 

I tried to stand strong whenever our relationship started  to have those shaky moments. It's hard for me but I stand strong on my own two feets. I went through a hard time to make you believe but you ignored. You enjoy all your days outside without thinking of me.

With people having those envy feelings towards us. With my jeolously feelings towards the girls surrounding you. Make a big issue in our relationship. Shed blood, Shed tears but you don't seems to care. 

We quarrel most of the time, being egoistic. Trying to change, I gave you the chances but with no avail, You're still the same. I waited patiently until the engagement day being plan.

It hurts me deep down this time round, we're about at the end of the relationship and I was to be blame. To leave you, All i ever wanted is for you to change that's the reason why, the break up[s] occurs but you have too many negative thoughts in your mind. It really hurts me deep down. Everything shattered. 

Wanted you back, was waiting patiently because I know it's my fault to leave but with no avail. You're moving with other girls. I'm glad to see you happy, it's hard though. I just move on slowly. 

I had this instinct which kept saying you both aint gonna last long. I just kept silence and it really happens.

You and her broke up. It really throws a big impact in you.

I just kept silently but tried to console you but never wish to take any advantage to it but still, I told you to patch things up because you're too egoistic that you both really move on. She can't let you go and I can feel her. I know how it feels to lose someone that we love the most.

And now, You're moving on with your life and I'm here doing my best and Yes, I managed too.

Sometimes, I admit I fall but I tried to stand on my own two feets and move on. My heart kept saying, " Don't go baby. " I'm staying. I'm following what my instinct told me to do so.

Afterall , you walk away but we're still contacting with each other.

Now, I don't know where you. I just wish you'll be alright. All the best in life. 

This song really am meaningful for me now. 

It's meant for someone who I'm contacting with now. 

Currently on the phone with A'an. 

He just came back from work like usual he'll be using his house phone to ring me up.

Afterall, in a few minutes, I shall bet his putting down the phone to have his shower and dinner. 

Tomorrow I'll be having lunch with both my elder brother and Mummy.

Before, he book - in camp. 

I miss him so much. 

Just now, thought of going back to Grandparent's house but something unexpected happens. 

Its raining heavily but I did managed to buy a pack of cigarettes just now using umbrella. 

When, I step out from the house, I felt the cold. 

I'm shivering until now :)

Hehe * 

I got nothing much to do , actually . 

And I shall say , I'll update another entry soon. 

Takecare, Sweetloves. 

Okay, I'm addicted to this song above. It reminds me of my past. 
I've been repeating this song, over and over again. 
Non-stop. The lyrics was so awesome ^^, 


Okay, look down * entry *
A few moments ago, I've told Ririehy Dollie to update my blog post and I want to thank her a lot. Much appreciated. Yes, I know It's hard for you to accept me when you're with Adeqk but things happen. 
I never had grudges on you :)
Things always happen for a reason.
You'll just be strong and takecare aites ? :D


Drop the topic.


I'm kind of missing A'an. Monday, come fast please ):
Oh damn, it's raining ^^,
I'm cold. I'll be off to bed in a few minutes time.
I've started to feel a little bit sleepy.


So yea, Shall end here.
Update soon, 
Takecare, Sweetloves.

; His image keeps replaying in my mind nowadays.

BLOGSKIN DONE*

I felt secure when his around me and I'm happy to have him. He's always there to cheer me up when I'm down and I'm happy. I'm thankful to ♥Allah for letting me to know sucha good friend like him. Much appreciated and I hope our friendship would last long ♥ Insyallah; Amin*


My stomach hurts a lot and I wish I could get rid of this )': Haishhh. Nehmind, Soon the pain will go away. I had no mood to do anything. I had maggie curry for myself just a few moments ago and I had no appetite to eat anymore. Like seriously, Whenever I'm having PMS this is what I'm turning out to be which I had it so much.