For you ; Dearest


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Sometimes, I wonder why must we go through all these in our friendship. The truth is , I love you dearly . You're just all i ever wanted in my life. I cherish and appreciate you for who you are. You're just like my elder sister but I wonder what went wrong that we keep having this arguement. Am i to be blame for all these ? You studied a lot about me and You always get the right thoughts that I'm having in my mind. Sometimes, I realize I've never been appreciated by you. Although, I'm working still I try to find some time to text you up although I didn't get a chance to give you a phone call. I felt so heartbroken. 

We keep leaving each'other and once again we turn around but this time round, No longer this time round. You really make me feel so hurt. I don't know what's wrong with you and you texted me and as though You're blaming me for everything whereby actually You're the one asking for it. Sometimes, You must understand that I can't always talk to you. Although, I'm online but that doesn't mean that I'm free. Although, I'm working still I got homeworks to do at home. That's the reason, I don't talk much. 

You once told me, while we're chatting. You said, As though, I've forget you when I'm having my happiness in me but the truth, I don't really feel happiness. I tried my best to keep it to myself cause I don't wish to talk about  my life anymore and add on you cause You're also facing problems with him about your relationship. 

Whatever it is, Now it's totally the end. I'm sorry that I've deleted you off from Facebook and my MSN contact List. I'm totally hurt with you. Takecare and I hope you will be alright. If there's any important or you're really in doubt text me up sweets. I'm still using the same number. I love you, although we've drifted apart. 

Look up, Although, It's 4:16am I'm still awake. I've been wondering. In just a few months and Papa will be release and Spark will be leaving for his National Service. I wonder, Why each time someone enters but also be someone leaving ? Haish . I really hope he's doing well. I'll never forget about you, All these years you had been giving me the courage and motivations. You were there to held me up when I fall to the ground. 

Although, We rally meet up, Still I will miss you. Seriously, No body can compared to you. 

I still remember how concern you are towards me although I'm not your flesh and blood. People thoughts about us but we prove them wrong. Remember ? How You went through a hard time to change me to become feminine and change into a better person. I will never forget about that , love. I really appreciate you. 

You must take good care of yourself , God'Brother. I'll be right here for you and I promise to take good care of Shasha for you. Don't worry. I'm gonna be fine with her. 

Nine months past, I never realize that I can stay this way for so long. My intention was only to make friends with the rest of them. Although, I'm closer to anyone but I realize I'm too difficult to accept someone new in my life. Sometimes, I wonder why am I so choosy . A friend of my brother said, If I keep listening to what my heart says, I'll never get the right one for myself. I guess, i need to use my brains too. Maybe, what he said is true. I must not depend on what my heart says. 

For now, I got nothing to do. I'm back to square one once again. Whats happening ? When will I find myself happiness in my own life ? I wonder. Haish. Insyallah; Real soon. Amin. I've quit with no salary -.- Damn it.

Okay, I'm not in a good mood. Good night. Sweetdreams and sleeptight. Sweetloves. Takecare. Muahs.

" For the rest of my life, 

through days and nights, 

i'll thanked ♥Allah for opening  my eyes widely  "

You never appreciate what I had given you for all these years when I stay by your side honest & true. I wanted to love you endlessly and Although, We're apart, I still think of you at times but I know We ain't getting back together cause, I wouldn't be able to accept you once again. You shattered everything. I blamed you that You were the one who open my heart when I had been thinking that Love was wrong but when You came along, Everything changes. I believe you and I thought you would be mine for the rest of my life but after years, I realize you ain't the one. You replace me just after one week we broke up. I never thought you would. I was blinded with your reactions and promises. Whatever happen, You know, I will always be there for you whenever you're in need. Now, You're happily with your current life partner, I'm not envy , yet I'm happy cause Atleast someone else can take good care of you. 

Sometimes, I admit I fall cause I still yearn for you but another thought, I just can't forgive you for what You had done towards me. Abandoned me all these while. Shedding tears and blood for you. Everyone told me , I was dumb and to take a step forward, I said, You would change but until one day, You really shattered my dreams. Until now, It's hard for me to move on with someone new. Cause, now I had this fear in falling in love once again. 

Now, I'm done updating.

Shall update real soon.

Takecare, Sweetloves♥

Finally, It took me few hours to search for a new blogskin. Basically, I've been rotting at home the whole day. Boredom Strikes. I got nothing much to do. I received a text message from my past & Let me reply it here.

Come on, You've made that decision and I'm here to just follow the flow. I had enough with all of these. Anyway, I mean nothing in your life. I purposely didn't reply your text messages because I know we will end up quarrelling and I'm sick and tired. Drop the topic. OH - M-Y- G-O-D ! I never expect that I only had one stick for today. Break record. I can't believe it. hehe * 

& my phone had been vibrating and i just can't pick up the phone until tomorrow. My secondary schoolmates had been calling me and texting me up about the celebrations that we thought of making for Lan and Hasif's legal 18th birthday. Boys, I'm sorry. I can't make it.

Anyway, I would like to wish ANDEE FADLY in belated. I'm sorry, I didn't managed to text you last night. Although, we ain't contacting each'other anymore , i'll never forget about your birthday. I hope you will be a successful person in future. Takecare aites :) Mum bumped into you but she's in the bus while you was with Ice and she told me about what she saw. I was taken aback. Haish. I'm too speechless.

For now, I'm doing nothing much, Just chatting with ♥ Hafiz and Danial texted me just now. When I reply, he didn't even text me back again. I wonder what went wrong. He said, I seem to be different. I don't know, what went wrong. Oh boy, Come on. We're close. We're not drifting apart. Please'please.

& to ♥ Ex, Last long with your current life partner. I hope everything goes smoothly for you. All the best in life. You know, I'll be there for you, whenever you need me. 

Shall update real soon.

Takecare , Sweetloves.

Nights ♥

Our plan was to go to VivoCity but she still wanted to go to Orchard so I just accompany her. She went shopping.  I met her at around 3 + and headed down to Orchard. Bumped into my brother ; Bai. 

And chit-chat for a moment and he stop at tiongbahru while i continue my journey to Orchard. When I reached, Damn it's raining heavily. So, I was a bit pissed off cause, I don't wish to get wet. Afterall, we headed to Far East Plaza and I had myself Horfun. Wow ~ Mind-blowing. I thought of eating wanton but it wouldn't make my tummy feel full. So, after i had my early dinner, walked towards my workplace at Cineleisure.

Was a bit pissed off and I'm not gonna elaborate. Headed  to Orchard Plaza and Lina had her Choc prata and we head down to Plaza Singapura. Was a bit pissed off again, to hear that She's meeting that someone and I just wish I could run away from him. Afterall, Still met him and had some stupid " meeting " and I just walked away and head back home. In the bus, was talking on the phone throughout my journey back home.

Reach home, Pissed off again-.- Damn shit, my room and the living room was so messed up and I quickly tidy it up. Sort of making me feel irritated. Now, I'm just chatting with someone and will be sleeping late. I guess. I got nothing much to do. Will be uploading yesterday's picture.

It's 2:55am , i've to be in bed now.. SO, YESSSS ! :D

daily readers of mine, good night.

i shall take my leave now.

Why ? Haish )': Tomorrow same timing~ At work was absolutely awesome and I really enjoyed myself.

Although, I'm too tired and feel like sitting down but I know, I must be professional at work so I just stay still.

DAMN, I miss A'an )': I had been too harsh towards him these days. i'm sorry, Not even a single message/ phone calls that I gave you. I know, we're drifting apart. I really am sorry.

i KNOW, You will be reading my blog. For now, Everything ends between me & him and I really put a full-stop to it. I've started to miss you so much. I felt a little bit missing in me but however, I know, We ain't belong together cause You never ever care anymore like how you used to. I couldn't put the blames on you only and a part of it, I was wrong too. 

Yes, About love. I can differentiate between love and work now. Being professional and have an understanding "BOYFEE" like you. How , I wish , we gonna be close like before )': I'm sorry A'an.

It's 3: 34am and I'm still awake. Just got back home from meeting my one & only small brother at block 201. Sitting and talk to him about life etc. Too many things that we shared. Everything seems to be changing between the both of us. We're drifting apart. I know, love but no matter what, Adek, Kakak really love you & will always remember you okay sayang ? Don't worry ~ 

Today , i head down to Cineleisure on my own. I went there to see my schedule for work. Tomorrow would be my off day & I'll be working morning shift till night the following day. Hopefully, everything would be fine.

I must learn to sleep early and wake up early. I've to prepare my uniforms that night before leaving to work. 

Life had been awesome for me now.

After cineleisure, plan to meet Nana after her work ends at 9pm but I wanted to meet Eyya Seraphiel cause I believe that both of us gonna drift apart cause I'm working full-time and had no time for her in future unlike Nana, We're working nearby so we can meet after work. Afterall, I train to Marymount slacked around with her and off home around 7 plus. Love, I understand how you feel and I know, You really want me to change into a better person and I'll do my best to change the way I am :) Whatever happen last night really throws a big impact to me. I went off to work feeling shagged. Seriously, but I put resilience to myself. 

I must be professional. Never ever mixed up with personal matters into relationship matters.

Sometimes, I wonder why must he shattered everything ? Haish ): Afterall, it doesnt matter to me anymore.

I get used to it already being treated this way. Oh boy, It's the end. You've made that decision of not being my friend anymore. No point for the both of us. Yes, I admit, my love for you had faded away and I know, We'll never gonna be together once again. I'm not looking for it either. Leading a single life almost 8 months.

I can't believe that time past so fast. 

I can't wait for Papa to be release. It would be 31st March. How, I wish I would have off day for that :)

I really miss him so much. I really hope he would change into a better person when he's release. Insyallah; Amin* No matter what, I'll do my best to spare a little time for him. It's okay. A bit of sacrifices for you, it's fine with me as long as you go'nna change.

Two more days, Abang Bai. You're turning 20 years old. Waaaa ~ Growing older ehs ? Hmmms~

I really hope to see you succeed in life aites ? :D I'm glad that we're close and you willing to listen to all my sorrows. I had been waiting for this moment & yes, I was taken a back with your changes.

Spark, I miss you )': Shasha too ! Shall meet you both real soon aites, love <3.

I got nothing much to update.

Takecare.

Nights, sweetloves.

Now, It's 2:17am. I've not been updating my blog. I got nothing much to do just to laugh and have fun with my god-brother; Spark and also with his friends surrounding me. Awesome day I had. I'll be going to collect my uniform on Monday at 4pm venue Cineleisure. Happy life :D

I hope, I'll be focusing on work and just focus with my life. Afterall, I've received text messages from ex-boyfriend to wish our Anniversary last night ): I never knew he would be like this but no matter what, I'm not focusing on my love-life until I find someone who really can take good care and accept me for who i am.

Okay, I'll be updating what I did for the past two days when I reach home. 

I really had fun with them all :D

Flashback few years back. hehe * 

Awesome ^^, 

Shall update soon.

Takecare :D

Night, Sweetloves.

Hello daily readers * Waving * ! 

Okay , I just got home a few hours ago, I went out with Mummy.

Yeah'ye, Can see that We're getting much more closer each day right ? :)

I'm glad to see this. 

Okay, Basically I got a lot to share.

But first , 

Okay, It would be shocking to see the picture above. 

It's a brand new start from me and I've been receiving a lot of advice from my friends and even my blood. 

I'm moving forward to achieve my goals and I'll be letting my love life come by its own. The facts, I'm not ready to be in a relationship as I'm not getting over him and I've a lot more to strike out in my wishlists. That's what I'm aiming for :) It's my FIRST priority. I would like to thank all my friends who was there for me when I'm falling down to the ground and Lift me up and give me the strength to stay strong. For now, I'm just focusing on my life and I'm sorry if some of you feel neglected by me.

This was meant for my one & only ; MUMMY. Okayh, I know, I've been pain in the ass for you and I've not been listening to you during the past and for now, I'm doing my best to be a good daughter to you & i'll do my best to make you happy. Thanks for being there for me whenever I'm down and Whenever I need someone to share my thoughts and feelings. We're getting closer and I'm glad that you've shared with me about your experience during your past and made it a lesson and taught me the meaning of " LIFE ". For now, I'm doing best to help you out with the houseworks and also financial problems that we're facing. I'm sure this will end really fast as Papa will be releasing soon and we're back as one family. Nobody can compare to you. You're just one in a million and thanks for being patience towards me for all this while. I'll never stop loving you. 

This is meant for my biological Father; AYAH. Although, We're far apart you'll never be forgotten. I understand that You're busy with your job and You're family but I know, You tried hard to find time to spend your time with me. I'm glad that sometimes you'll call me up to know my whereabouts and my health. I'll do my best to become a good daughter and I know you really want me to be one. I'll show a good example towards my younger brother. Don't worry aites ? :) No matter what, You're always in my mind. I'll never stop loving you, You're my blood. Without you, I'll never gonna get a chance to see the world. Thanks, Ayah. 

This is meant for my step-father ; PAPA. Although, We're not having the same blood and the day you get married to my mother, You're just an awesome person who accept us the way we are. I miss those time we shared our stories together and you'll always there to pick me up when I fall to the ground. The day that you get caught and two years, we've been far apart, I can't deny that I miss you so much. You're just one in a million. You always stand up for my rights and I appreciate it so much. I'm hoping that you'll be releasing soon. I'm waiting for you patiently. As, I've promised you to remain single, I'll do my best and remain this way. Thanks for all the advice that you've given me. I love you so much. I'm sorry for being pain in the ass when the first time you get married to my mother. 

This is meant for my elder brother ; ABAI. We used to be close when we're young but we're not when we both were teens. Now, You'll getting close to me as You're happy with the changes I've made in my life. I know, I've always be a disappointment to you. For now, I'll do my best to be good sister. I know, You can't show the siblings love to me. It's okay. Deep down, I know, You love me so much. I love you too. 

This is meant for my god-brother; SPARK. He was there to see all my ups and downs. He appreciate me for who I am and love me so much and I feel the same way too. Thanks for being there for me for all this while. You're always be in my mind although, We're far apart. No matter what, You're the bestest god-brother I ever had. No one can compare to you. You taught me the meaning of life too. Thanks for all the advice that You've given me. Thanks for waiting patiently for the changes in my life. I'll do my best to change. 

I'll never forget you, NO matter what happen cause You're the one that gave me strength and courage. I love you, endlessly. 

This is meant for my BLOOD SISTER; EYYA SERAPHIEL. Thanks babe, for being there for me whenever I fall down to the ground. Thanks for all the advice and courage. Although, the truth we're not related but You treat me like one. You'll always be there when I'm in need and thanks for treating me whenever I'm having a financial problems. Thanks, Alot. I really hope you and Fyq will have a brand new start for your relationship. All the best, Babe ♥.  I love you, endlessly. 

& now, I'm done letting out my feelings and I'll do my best to strike out all my wishlists and change for the better in future. I'm hoping to get a job real soon and commit in it. Thanks for reading my blog, I'll update real soon. Takecare, Sweetloves ♥ 

Hey Luve ! ShaSha KeCyk here ! Ok Cinta'BabyPuteriySweets|Amira ask me to update her blog ! Hmm . . . Wat shall I write ? Hmm . . . Ok . . . Shall write abt her ever since I meet her on the past few days . . . Hmm . . . Here I go !

She's a sweet lady . . . Whom are easy to tok wif . . . A lovable lady . . . That's why I luve to tok her . . . She's love my guy soo much ! That's I luve her TOO ! A pretty lady . . . Who has a natural beauty in her . . . Soon a very matured lady too . . .

Ok dats all frm me !

With Love,

ShaSha KeCyk ♥♥