Dearest, I just got back one hour ago and I was busy watching the videos I've taken a few hours ago at Grandlink. Was having a very blissful day:) Awesome with Aphie as well as Inin. At first there's something going on but I just let it go, I admit it's my mistake. He's not to be blame over someone else reactions. Babe, You just wait for the right time. I shall be patience now:) No point quarrelling over stupid matters actually but Come dare me. Let's see how we play the game. Alright?

Look up, Fred Berry Imitation. LOLL. I brought the same clothes as my bestfriend; Afyq. We really had an awesome day. Actually our plan was to head down to Marina Bay Sands but we cancelled due to the weather. We head down to Town and watch Big Momma. It was quite interesting and I really wish to watch it again. Shall buy the CD, I guess. 

I was being selfish that I ate the ice-cream alone:) LOLL. And, Pity Afyq cause He'll never GONNA eat CHOCs but I took the CHOCs flavour for that Ice-cream and He ate a little bit.

Afterall, That night head down to meet Inin as well as Aphie. We were slacking and head back to Aphie's crib and we played guitar. I cabbed home and I get ready off to Jemputan. It's quite nice actually.

Afterall, Yeah. Grandlink:) Haha. Now, My eyes can't help it anymore.

I want to be in bed. Thanks to Mama for fetching me home from Grandlink.

Nights, Sweetlove.

♥ Fucking fuck, Where can I get this T'shirt? Damn shit, I really need to wear it at home. 

The purpose to tell my mom. Damn shit, I know I'm being impolite but I'm too pissed off with her.

Having problems with my blood brother , She should just get mad with him ahh, Why me?

I kept silence and she step over my head. I can't put the blame on my blood brother cause I know, It's my mom's mistake. 

& the fact is, I'm LAZY and I'm out of this issue.

I'm sick and tired cause I know, I have my own things to focus on and I know, I'm leading a happy life.

& one more fucking issue makes me feel down was I'm having stomach cramps.

I didn't meet up Grandny to head down to Geylang Market as well as I can't meet my one& only brother ; ♥Spark when he book out today. I hope everything would be fine tomorrow. 

& I'll be going out with my bestfriend ; ♥ Afyq. 

Damn, I'm ending my post here.

I'm fucking not in a mood.

Fuck shit. Get outta my way.

♥ Missing my one&only ; Spark.

Damn shit, bro. I miss you. I hope you're doing alright there:) Wishing you all the best to face all the obstacles. Shall see you losing weight, then. Hahah! :) Meet up, once you got your book out.

Sat, I can't wait:) Hehe* Will be meeting up my one&only Bestest friend; ♥Fiqoh Sonarita.

We'll update our photos we gonna take this sat. He'll be fetching me as usual. Maybe will be heading to out with his Mom:) Kkay , I would like to share something.

I'm superb HAPPY ! xD 

Serious shit, I've exchanged room with my brother.

& i took the front room.

Much more bigger and I really love it.

Alhamdulillah. 

Although, Mama don't like it, It's between me and brother. Thanks sayang:)

kkay, actually these past few days to many things happen and I wanted to update but my laptop was at Grandny's crib so yeah, I can't update.

& now, I've forgotten what I wanted to update.

It's okay. I'll be waiting for May.

Off to Batam again. 

Shopping & next month, 

Should be saving for ITOUCH:)

Right'right?

I guess.

And, and .. The most greatest Gift, 

♥ Papa, he's out:) Ya allah, Alhamdulillah.

Amin* Terkabul jugak permintaan ku.

I miss you so much.

I feel so complete now:)

Muahs.

Kkay, I got nothing much to update.

Takecare, muahs.

♥ 11 : 33 pm 

Today, I didn't get a chance to rest not even I slept for the whole night. I did my best to find time to rest but I just ain't feeling comfortable. I'm dead worried. Mama down with fever. Early in the morning just now was about to sleep just for a few hours but end up Mama came into my room and I was shocked to see her appearance and asked her why and I feel something fishy. Drop about what I felt. 

Afterall, Mama asked me to accompany her so I follow her. Bath and get ready. Afterall, head down to take cab and we cab down to Woodlands Polyclinic.

Consult the doctor and I waited for her number and collect the medicine while Mama's out cause She can't stand the cold inside. Afterall we crossed to the opposite coffee shop and I brought for a chicken porridge while I was on the phone with ♥ [New friend] and then, we cab home. Afterall, I fed her medicine as well as whatever she wants and I asked her to rest.

Watching tv, dvd, texting, online and now, I just put down the phone with ♥[New friend] and now, I'm lying down doing nothing much.

& finally, I've extend my hair and It's on my own:)

Till here, Shall update soon.

Mama, get well soon,

I love you.

Muahs.

I'm looking for a lover not a friend, 

somebody who could be there when I need someone to talk to.

Looking for someone who won't pretend.

Someone who won't afraid to say the way they feel about you.

Understand and keep guiding me. 

Someone to trust and while talking to make me feel sleepy.

Would be the one for me ?

Maybe, you're the one I've been waiting for.

Sometimes, people take things for granted. It wouldn't be a simple thing to change but Life is just like adidas and Nike. Nothing is impossible. You can do it. I believed in that:) Till now, Life still have to move on, no point holding the past cause even they don't bother anymore about it. I've been thinking about something lately. Ever since, I'm the one who make one step forward to leave and ended up now, He's turning into one lonely person in four walls. Regret is not the word for me. It was just a sentence which states that I've to learn from it and not to repeat it again. I hope that He's really doing fine there. He used to be a part of my life too but I was too dumb not to take good care of him just because I didn't have much time and had been focusing with more with my malay dance practice and surroundings. I neglected him for that. I'm sorry. 

I don't know how to write to him cause I don't have the address but I'll wait for another one more month and I'll do my best to ask his surroundings. I really want to apologise to him. It's my mistake. I'm sorry. Deep down, I know I'm the one who shattered everything. Forgive me. 

Maybe during my past, I'm being too egoistic and self-centered that's the reason why, I didn't treasure you much. I've still have the kid in me. I really hope you will forgive me. I miss you, badly dear Friend)":

& cut the topic. I want to break down now ): Damn shit, Oh yeah. I really had fun just now with Shasha. 

We crap, we laugh, we giggled and the ending part, She's in tears. Pity her. I'll do my best to help you talk to my lovely one and only brother, Sweet heart. Stay strong. I know, deep down in my brother's heart, He still do love you. Just stay calm alright ?:) Things always happen for a reason. In a relationship, You just have to go through the ups and downs. It's for your own experience and you can learn from there. Patience sweet heart. Like what I've told you, You can love that someone deliberately but REMEMBER Not to much. 

Cause, If anything happens, you'll break down badly and I don't wish to see that. You're sucha sweet girl.

I'm really am happy to know you. Thank god that you brought her to me. Alhamdulillah:)

Okay, for now, I don't wish to update much cause I know, I'm talking much here. So yeah, Update soon.

Take care and nights sweet loves.