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I'm not in a mood& I need time to be alone.

Will be away & will be updating my blog post real soon. Take care :)

Hey Sweet love, I just woke up yet I should be frank that I can't sleep well. )': I started to miss Mama so much but I leave no choice. I've to learn to be independant now. It hurts to see that I'm having a broken family once again. Why things turn out this way ? I miss the moments I had, the wonderful time I had with Mama.

I believe it will take me some time to let go all this pain. I know, Mama suffering much more than me. I don't wish to add more to her but I also need my life. In order to let go, everything. He'll never change. I gave him chances just he always talk by emotional & not rasional. Messing things up and end up to be in this way.

I pity Mama, when things will end for her? She needs happiness too. She needs her own life. I believed that She had enough & she wanted to walk away. Think twice for all those things love, If you want to stay, By all means, I'll support her but I just hate people laying hands on you cause I know, You're big enough to think what's right&wrong. You're no more a kid.

I just am speechless now. Takecare.

In life, each and every human beings will face a lot of obstacles & there won't be any problems without a solution. At times, people must understand that we need time to have a peace of mind. I don't wish to take things for granted but I just hate people who don't appreciate others. I just need some time to be alone & I need some time to have a solution. I don't wish to make things worst but I've to turn out this way.

Dearest Mama, I know you will be wondering about my whereabouts. Although, I'm eighteen but I know, You still do concern about it. Yet, I just want you to know, I'm doing fine. I can do it. I'm a strong lady like you too.
You make your choice whatever it is, We'll be as one another fine day. Insyallah.

This world there will always be a lot of choices but I ain't sucha a dumb to choose the wrong path. I'll promise I'll never do any stupid stuffs. You don't have to worry, cause I'll be alright. Whatever happens, Remember I love you so much cause no body can compare to you. You're just one in a million, love.

Pray to him & insyallah he will show you the guidance. Amin :)

I'm a little dissapointed& a little bit frustrated with my surroundings. I'm too speechless, don't know where should I start to share it with someone & let out my sorrows. It's kinda hard when I'm being force to do the things that I certainly gonna hate so much. If they really want me to do, by all means, I'll do. No point working actually cause I can gurantee my money will be showered to them & I'll just a few hundreds bucks of it. How long sia, I've to feel this way? Things turn out differently when he appeared. Oh please, How I wish I could get my life back like the past two years without him in our family. Damn shit.

True, I should think maturedly but this is my life. I'm the one who gonna get what I want & feel the happiness at the end of the day. Stop it, pressurizing me or even forcing me. Cut this fucking bloody crap.

HOW I WISH , I COULD RUN AWAY BUT I KNOW THAT THIS WILL NEVER SOLVE IF THE SOLUTION IS TO RUN AWAY . fuck ah, sick& tired.

Everything shattered now. My life full of messed. Give me a break, oh please.
I know you will read my post, so yeah.
Read it & understand it.

Dad, I do love you but somehow you must let me have my own way of life. I'm not gonna follow everything that you've plan for me CAUSE THIS BLOODY LIFE is my life & not yours. Think about your own future. Get lost !

I'm a little bit shag. Boredom strikes & got nothing much to do, So as usual here will be the place. I don't wish to leave my blog dead. Laptop currently down so I'll be sending it for service. Will be updating as per normal in a few weeks time. Nyway, sweet loves ! :) Thanks for all the wishes & double& triple'triple'triple wish. Not to forget, the taggers too. So sweet of you. Much appreciated.

This year, the eve of my celebration was so awesome & I thanked Hafiz Jasmin for that. It was a blissful day:)

I'm dissapointed with Mama cause she aint celebrating my birthday. It's okay :)

cause I got my sweet loves celebrating with me. Okay, I'm done blogging. Update soon. Takecare.

I'm feeling superb irritated with this humans surrounding me. Oh please, give me some time. I really want to update my blog & I don't need any one to disturb me & second, I'm having a bad sore throat here )': with running nose. Damn, It's quite irritating. Oh please, how can I get rid of this ? )':
My birthday in one day time. DAMN! My birthday celebration for this year totally different without " you ".
Damn, How I wish you will be celebrating my birthday again like years back. I miss those moments we had during my birthday & i miss MEE GORENG that Mama cook for me)':

I remember years back, I didn't ask much cause all I ever wanted was your presence right beside me but now, I can't ask for it anymore. I've to accept the fact & learn to get use to it. It's 2:10am & my parents are away from home. Damn, I'm all home alone. Come back soon, love.

Bump into Kak Dayah a few hours ago & didn't get a chance to talk much cause I'm busy handling something like so fucking irritating-.-'' & I get a chance to walk back home with my dearest Atiqah. Damn, the April Babies. Hahah * Yeah, I miss all those times. Each year, I'm growing one year older & I'm quite afraid. I haven't make any plans in life. Right now, Just waiting for confirmation going back to finish up my studies. Insyallah, At least N's cert will do.

I'm tired & I can't help it with my eyes any longer. So yeah, Will be updating real soon. I don't wish to make my blog dead anymore. Like seriously :) Takecare Sweet loves. & Thanks taggers. Nights ^^,

Doing nothing much just chatting with bestfriend & I would like to update some important stuffs today.
First of all, I'll never forget to wish my beloved sister who will always try her best to be there for me whenever I'm down. Happy Birthday Sweet love ! :) I know, You'll be thinking to much tonight without him by your side to celebrate your birthday together but love, stay strong alright? I miss you so much. I hope you'll be alright & have a blissful celebration with his family/ friends.

& today, I'll get my Samsung galaxy. Awww, I'm excited. Really. I swear:)
Two days more to my birthday & I don't know what will happen.

Okay, about just now. I don't wish to elaborate much but I really am superb down. Thank god atleast he understand me. I let out my sorrows & I feel peace in mind. I'll be leaving Singapore soon to Batam. Can't wait to see no one to disturb me & i'll have a peace of mind.

Feels like going honey moon sia. haha* Okay, I got nothing much to update.
I'll update real soon:) Takecare, Night Sweet love.

I felt irritated having this bad cough & on/off fever. I pity myself cause I didn't give myself a chance to rest and have a healthy life. These days, I'll stay at home to recover instead of going out. I've been missing boyfriend so much)': Not been meeting him. Hmm, I wanted to go to Zoo or even USS, Let's see how it goes.

Bestfriend's mom texted me to asked about Bestfriend but he aint texting me cause he's too busy, I guess.
I'll be paying a visit to his mom real soon:) Hopefully, Everything would be fine. I hope he would change.
He loves to play the finding game & I hate to hear all these from his mom.

A few days more & that's when my birthday celebration will be held. I can't wait:) I do miss Kak Wanie& Ice cause we used to celebrate our birthday together as I and Ice falls on the same day while Kak Wanie two days before us. The April's Babies.

Ice, I hope you'll be fine in there & Have been waiting patiently for Andee's Letter to be received. I've wrote to him but with no avail. It's okay, atleast I did post to him a letter to show I'm sincerely am sorry & still do care for him. Surroundings, blame me but I'm telling you, He's old enough to think & He should know how to make a right decision but he pick the wrong one.

& Now, I'm doing nothing much. Will be updating my blog real soon. Takecare sweet love. Thanks for reading& thanks for being there for some of my friends. I appreciate it much.

Good Morning, Sweet Loves<3

I just woke up & I was drop dead last night when I reached home. It's to tiring for me these days& I don't have enough rest. I'm having flu& bad cough. I swear, I hate it so much)': Feels like cutting my throat-.-''

Today, around afternoon, I'll be off to Tampines to buy my birthday dress :)

& not to forget about my casual days.

Awww, Have not been shopping.

Today mark 15April a few days more down the road to celebrate my birthday.

Damn, I can't wait.

Have been thinking what will happen on my legal birthday.

Oh yeah, I really can't wait to see what they have been preparing for me :)

Actually, My mom told me to go to the CPF building but I'm a little bit tired to go out early in the morning-.-''

& Let's see how it goes.

I miss my boyfriend)':

Haishhh.

& Bestfriend, Meet today ! Can't wait ~

I hope we would be having fun today spending time together.

& I'll shall take my leave now.

Takecare, Sweet loves.

I LOVE MY BESTFRIEND.

&forever I will :)

Allah, moga'moga kekal kan persahabatan kami berdua.

Amin*

Today, I go karaoke with my bestie and have alot of fun with hym at grandlink... After the karaoke, i go meet my neighbour ApekLurb after his karaoke... We have a chat under the void deck... And i when home and change my clothes and i go meet him back... Actually we thought to hang out at waterfront but we just change the plan by meeting his friends at pool at woodland checkpoint... I just watch them playing... Once Apek finish one game of pool... He when back with me...hehex.. And once we reach home, we chat at msn... Night2 Blog :)

Signing off
Babyputeriy Sweet

Afiq Rahman , Update for My besf : CintaBabyPuteriy !

Meeting this Cutey Pie tady . Was a awesome day tady .We go for karaoke . Still waiting for the video . hehehe ! Then go Makan with this Gila . hahaha !
I find that she was awesome to be with . Sometime memang sakit hati lah . hahaha ! tapy kalau u know her well she is a great person and a loving person . Sometimes she suke ikot kemarahan die . Tapy ape boleh buat kan , dengarkan jer lah . Seriously , she has the love in her heart . Orang tak call dia for one week , da macam orang gila . Belom lagy setahun . For me , this NaughtyAmira is a lovable person. Happy to be with . I have a great time with her . Walaupon tak banyak talk with each other . Bit by bit , i will make you life happy tau :)

Im' sorry for what i have done to you previously . I don't mean to do that to you . Is not that i want to lie . I just want to let go all of my stress when i'm inside the army . I'm very2 sorry , i hope you will accept my apology . I hope you will gain my trust back . I don't mean to break your heart . I love you like the way you do . BestF , Cinta , Sayang , ke akhir hayatku <3

Time check in 7 : 45 am. I've not been sleeping since last night. I don't know what went wrong. Maybe, I've been thinking to much lately. Whatever happen, I need to be strong in facing all these & I've to accept the fact. It really throws a big impact in me. Disappointment as well as I'm perplexed. I've to think like a young adult. Yknow, It's hurts to see this happening in me. I went through a hard time lately. How, I wish I could understand& be there for Mama when she really need someone to pour out her sorrow. I wonder why lately, She's been too secretive towards me. Y sayang ?)': Damn , shit. Please, I'm here for you. No matter what, I'll be with you.

Will be meeting my bestfriend; Afiq later at his crib around afternoon. Miss him so much ): We got a few hours to chat with each other & just an hour to talk on the phone. I'm happy to see him happy :) So yeah, maybe because I'm too excited to meet him that's why I can't sleep. Is that the real reason ? I guess. haha*

Okayokay, I'm off now. Take care. Mornight Sweet loves.

Dearest love, I've been away for quite so long. Now, I'm here updating. Currently, I'm not at home. I just got back from Grandlink with Abang Bai. I really had so much fun with him. This is the first time that we really spend the entire day together. Just the both of us. Shall go again. Okay, Abang?

Niway, Abang Spark, I'm sorry I've been neglecting you ever since papa been release that day. I really hope you understand. I do miss you so much. I'll find some time to make my entire day free for you as well as Shasha. I miss you. bey)':

I've replied the taggers:) Will be deactivating my facebook real soon:)
Blog will be updated soon, once I got my broadband back in my hands. haha*

Kkay, I'm done. Just a short and simple cause I don't want my blog dead.
Takecare, Sweetlove<3

I just hang up the phone with bestfriend. I'm really hurt & dissapointed with him. Received call from his mom telling me all sorts of stories & i tried to cheer her and I never knew that I can make it. Haha.Now, i'm still awake cause I'm waiting for Papa to reach home with Mama. Pity Papa. He complaint to me that's boredom strikes him there. I should have head down there to meet him just now.
I guess, Mom end work alrd at this hour. I'm now just facebooking & also puffing. Nothing much to do.Just now, went out to meet some friends at Town. & I wasn't slacking there for so long.11+pm, I head back home.
All the way, was on the phone with Bestfriend's mom. Listening to her stories. She's quite nice to be with actually. Kkay, I'm speechless now. Good night:)

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